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Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.
- as stated 12 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential P E E R s
"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
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K.I.S.S. -
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Keep It Simple Sweetheart
whole&full-filled, never perfect&complete
Intro
to
k.i.s.s.-l o g + all
dates
January
21 at Shoham
back to past ~~~~~
forward to future
image of the
day : "My Salt Sea"
2002
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hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
8:30
My Body, my Partner,
I give thanks to our excellent breathing system,
which not only has enabled us to live life for 70 years,
but helps us now to feel into each and every change of feeling,
and move the feeling
like the wind moves the waves on my
Salt Sea.
I give thanks to little
Mika,
for coming closer and closer,
and letting me feel loved.
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When waking up after a complex, stressful dream drama,
not remembering anything, that can be pinned down,
but feeling heavy~~~
how wonderful is it then, to "do" the two simple things,
to change my breathing into "circular
breathing"
and to say: "Yes, I accept what I feel with all my heart,
I accept you, "Mother",
the magnetic aspect of Deity,
I manifest All-that-we-are in this "waving of wind and water.
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"ken, ken, ken!"
To release my "Yes-Pattern",
but at the same time speed up saying "yes,
yes, yes!"
to every feeling in every breathing in and breathing out,
this is the nucleus of every atom, every molecule, every creation.
And this I can now reinforce in the presence of Mika.
Finetuning:
Not yet having continued with the story
about Mika,
I get a call from Yael's
teacher Deqel, from Modi'in,
and fall right back into the trap of my Yes-Pattern.
"Can I come at seven this evening?"
I hesitate ~ ~ ~
it's my time with Mika!
But the Yes-pattern dictates:
"Yes, come!"
I try to win time:
"Didn't you want to come with two
others?"
"Well, one is sick, and the other isn't free at this
hour,
but I have to be at Shoham for a "Healing-Workshop"
at eight."
Yesterday she had called and said:
"I got your number from your daughter,
Ya'el's mother.
She says, that you are ready to facilitate some activity
with the 13 girls wh0 this year will become "Bat-Mitzvah",
in order to connect them to their Jewish
heritage."
"Did you read
what I wrote about the purpose and plan I've suggested?"
No, she hadn't, but she wanted to meet
me already this week.
I understood, that Ronnit, the initiator
of this idea,
had transferred the matter to the school,
and not forwarded our e-mail correspondence.
On the other hand, Ronnit had suggested -according to Deqel,
that the activity take place at her house,
and that I should be transported from Shoham and back.
Of course, I welcome any change in my program,
be it the place or the hours dedicated to it or even the content,
provided the girls would each have their own "Tenach-Koren",
which is the best print and
layout of the Hebrew Bible.
as a physical connection to their Jewish heritage
That was yesterday.
Now I felt, that Deqel took the meeting less seriously,
as if now she only wanted to go through the motions.
But the point was, that I didn't listen
to myself!
Not even, when Deqel showed me a way out:
"If it's not convenient for you,
I can come another time."
It is incredible - the dictatorship
of a pattern!
I said: "Yes!
come!"
She demanded that I explain her how
to reach my house and closed.
I stood in my room - perplexed~~~ numb,
remembering, that today Mika would be at a performance for
toddlers,
and wouldn't be home between six and seven.
So there would be hardly an hour after kindergarden and before
bedtime.
And this after our fantastic intimacy yesterday and this morning!
Mika is my teacher!
And I shouldn't miss one minute with my teacher!
I tried to correct my mistake and call back,
but ~~~ the number was covered and not to be identified.
It wouldn't have been a good idea to call my
daughter about it,
and trying to find out the number of the Democratic School,
and through it to track that teacher,
would have been too troublesome.
"I must feel my disappointment about myself all day long.
breathe it time and again
and use it as a way to reinforce my desire:
"I want to say YES, when I truly
mean YES,
and not in order to make it easy for someone."
Again and again I hear that sentence of Harvey Jackins in
1978
[see
Learning Techniques of Moving Emotions > Re-evaluation
Counseling]:
"You always try
to make it easy for people,
that's why they despise you!"
I don't care about being despised,
but I do care about overriding myself!
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Reading on my bed "The
Giving Tree" ,
while being dressed by Imma Efrat
18:38
Is this the reward for my Finetuning this morning?
Deqel cancelled the meeting at 19:00!
I'll be free to be with Mika and Efrat!
Hodayah! Thanks!
Later::
The short-term cancellation - without explanation- bothers
me.
But I shall not lend power to my suspicions by noting them
here,
I am breathing them and stick with my first feeling of Hodayah!
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If this umptiest fall into the trap
of my "Yes-Pattern"
wasn't enough to make me tremble, and try to find rescue in
Breathing,
I opened my e-mail and found a letter from
Tina, from Hungary,
"long as the length of the Exile", as we say in
Hebrew.
The slandering of "Godchannel.com"
was even worse than expected.
"I need to stop this conversation immediately!"
I said to myself
and I wrote:
I'll give you just two examples
of your Not-Reading, Not-Listening, Not-Understanding:
I did not claim, that David was the Messiah,
David
was the symbol of the Messiah,
and therefore Jesus had to come from "the House of David"
in Bethlehem,
though he was born in Nazareth.
You warn me of "Other
things mentioned on the channel you watch,
such as oijaboards" as being "also of the occult",
I put the term in Navigator "search"
and indeed found it mentioned twice, in both cases as a warning!
www.godchannel.com/chancom.html
"entities contacted through automatic
writing and Ouija Boards
are often quite playful,
but some can be tricksters, and others can even be mean spirited.
We don't recommend these methods of channeling"
www.godchannel.com/chanclasscom2.html
"To stay on the safe side it is always
best
to ask only for connection with the highest Source available
to you,
in this case the Holy Spirit.
Accept no substitutes.
And there is more going on here than meets the eye.
Certain methods of unconscious channeling
such as 'automatic writing' and 'Ouija Boards'
open the possibility for an invasion of beings
who are misplaced at your level of reality.
They consider your channeling inquiry
as an invitation to enter your psyche, and they often will.
They can also be more than just visitors.
They can attach themselves to you,
as you have experienced,
and they can be difficult to shake away
without formally telling them to leave."
"There
are thousand of paths, One is the goal of all"
is the beginning of a song of mine.
We'll meet sometime, somewhere, but we cannot walk together.
So please, let me go! and do not contact me nor send me links!
Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam"
This is what I saw at noon, when I walked the dog:
two paths leading into one!
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What a gift!
Since I wanted to show Tina a - light
- example of her misunderstanding,
I opened Godchannel.com
and lo !
there was a new update!
A new message from "God" is always like a message
from a lover.
Every month or so I check, if there is an update.
This time I was guided to hit the exact date:
January 21, Full Moon!
And though it's only a message from the Channelers,
there is a promise in it!
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And now
the little story with Mika about "ken, ken, ken!"
Efrat returned from kindergarden and said in Mika's presence:
"We are 'sholem' now, right Mika?
and to me:"I was absolutely mad at
her in the car.
She received me with such rejection and "no, no, no",
and even in the kindergarden she says nothing but "No!"
and again to Mika:
"But now we are 'sholem', Mika will
say: 'Yes!', won't she?"
Of course, even for a two year old, a pattern is a dictator,
especially since behind the pattern there is a true necessity:
Mika's identity and power needs to evolve!.
But Mika seemed to agree, that there actually
was a possibility to say "Yes!"
Efrat and I tried to find the right phrasing
for reminding her of this possibility.
For telling her: "Mika doesn't say No, does she?"
is confusing:
a demand to NOT do something, while the
something is to NOT say "NO"...
So we are learning to change Mika's no-sentences into a yes-sentences.
"Let's go to brush your teeth."
"No!"
"Do you say 'no!' Mika?
Mika says: "yes, we'll go and brush my teeth."
Quite often Mika indeed changes her mind
and says: "Yes" to a
proposal or to a demand
- in the few cases in which a demand is necessary.
This morning, when she ran into my room even before dressing,
and Imma was ready to bring her clothes
and dress her on my un-done bed,
Mika saw a flower pattern on my sheet and immediately asked
for real flowers.
I gave her the three wild calendula flowers
which I had picked for her yesterday while walking Nella.
But when Mika came home, the flowers had gone to sleep.
Now the three tiny blossoms were in different stages of waking
up,
and while we were watching those, I started to make fun and
sing
"Calendula, Calendula, ken, ken, ken",
in all kinds of rhythms and sounds and volumes.
I also put some Calendula miracle cream on her weather-dry chin,
a chance to remind her of the connection between cream and flowers.
And since Mika has such a great sense of humor,
I'll sing her these words - when she'll succumb to her "No-pattern":
"Calendula, Calendula - ken, ken, ken"
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My little flower loving girl
"What story do you want?"
asked Imma at bed-time. "nadiv",
she said,
A book without colors, the content loaden with morality-philosophy
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how can she possibly be so interested in this book?
Since I had brought it to my room at night, to learn more about
it,
she discovered it this morning, and after Imma had dressed up
her hair,
she started "to read" again.
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"ha-etz ha-nadiv",- The
generous tree
the translation of the classical children's
book:
"The Giving Tree" by Shel Silverstein, 1964 (!!) |
Mika's last activity, before she had to practice
"Yes, Imma, let's go to the kindergarden",
was her wish to scribble.
Sitting next to my computer, next to the berries and the flowers for
which she had asked,
she started to "draw" on my "Seth"-Clippings
until I took a white sheet of paper and cut out geometrical forms.
A circle!
she doodled something and said: "more!",
a triangle, "more!"
- a square, "more!",
- a rectangle, "more!",
a kite - she let it fly, "more!"
an elipse : "you
don't know this form, listen, it's called 'elipse'!" and
she scribbled on the tiny elipse.
And then I sang all the way to the elevator: "Calendula,
Calendula, ken, ken, ken!"
Evening:
On most evenings Efrat goes to bed early, or simply wants to be by
herself,
but tonight I saw her watching a program she likes: "Born to
Dance".
I decided to let go of the programs I had planned to see in my room,
and stayed with her.
It was nice for a change, to comment together on what we watch,
to use the breaks for advertisements to chat along,
and - for instance - to pour our judgments over
this Channel 2,
which cares a shit about sticking to their programs as published on
the Internet.
"Later there will be another chapter of
"Arab Work", did you know that?"
"On a Monday all of a sudden?"
Efrat stayed on and saw this precarious comedy for the first time.
As
I said "on the Eve of Annapolis", when the series started:
I'm not sure if to feel amused or pained...
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