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no date
checked for updates: 2005_07_30; re-studied, re-edited : 2009_07_01
I found the file updated yet another
time, after it was, since Febr.
19, 2010 , included in the new Denial
Pages -
"an index that lists the more prominent places on the site
where denial energy is discussed and the various ways of releasing
it are described."
It might be confusing, that I am mentioning both "Old Version"
(before 2005) and "Previous Version" (before 2010),
but for me it's sharpening my thinking, when I can observe, how
the text evolved!
The final version can be seen - as usual - in the
original file.
Healing Class III
Reclaiming Lost Spirit
[now called:] Part Two: Deep
Denial Energy - the 'Asuras'
"When I visited the
Void to separate Lucifer from the rest of my Light [previous
version: from myself],
I discovered the source
[previous version: I
discovered what I believed to be the source]
of the earlier trouble between the Mother and me.
In the Void was very densely concentrated
deep [missing in previous
version] denial energy.
The presence of this denial energy seemed to me to be individual
beings,
[previous version:
This presence of denial appeared to
me as beings,]
and I immediately [missing
in previous version] understood
they were in the void because they wanted only oblivion.
This energy appeared
[previous version:These
beings appeared to me]
as a swarm of huge winged creatures
with shiny black, spindly bodies.
They looked quite grotesque
[previous version:
They were grotesque,]
like elongated skeletons of bats.
|
[Old
Version:
In the Void were beings who were there
because they wanted only oblivion.
The Asuras, as they're called, appeared to me
as a swarm of huge winged creatures
with grotesque, spindly bodies
that were shiny black
resembling very large, elongated skeletons of bats.] |
"With intense hatred
they complained bitterly to me
["to me"
is missing in the old version]
that their slumber in oblivion had been
disturbed
by my presence here now.
| And
they let me know how upset they were earlier
when the pulsing of my Light
and the movements of the Mother's magnetic essence
disturbed them ~ |
[Old
Version:
and earlier by the pulsing of my Light
and the movements of the magnetic essence.] |
as the Mother and I emerged
from opposite ends of the Void.
They let me know that they were here
because they wanted only death and oblivion.
They represented the opposite of everything
I later came to know as 'good'.
I also learned later
that they were here as the antithesis
[Old Version: that they
were the antithesis]
of all the fundamental
qualities
in Grandfather's original, perfect Creation.
pp18
"When Grandfather chose to have
only life, love, beauty, harmony, and goodness in his Creation,
he had to find a place for the qualities
that were necessary to balance these.
Because
manifestation requires duality, [this
line is missing in the old version]
in order for a thing to exist,
its opposite must also exist somewhere to balance it.
'Up' without 'down' is impossible,
and so is 'good' without 'evil'.
| In
the void
Grandfather placed all of the energy and values
that were the antithesis of his Creation.
This worked well for all concerned.
This energy wished for oblivion or non-existence,
so he denied ["he
denied" should
probably be omitted]
he granted their wish by denying them existence.
|
[Old
Version:
In the void Grandfather placed all
of the beings
who embodied the antithesis of his Creation.
They wanted oblivion,
so he denied them existence.] |
"Denial energy is not
in form, it is beyond form.
It has no essence,
it's not Spirit or Mother,
so speaking of it must be somewhat metaphoric.
" 'Asuras', as they've become known,
are the metaphoric spirits of denial.
[The
following passage is missing in the previous version:]
"Since they don't actually exist as beings,
speaking of 'them' as if they are beings
can be misleading.
"I do so here with the understanding
that they are the metaphoric representatives
of the deep denial energy of the Void.
'Asuras' or 'denial spirits' are symbols
of the energy
that denies life, love, beauty, harmony and goodness
|
[Previous version of
the last sentence: As the symbol of
denial energy,
they deny life, love, beauty, harmony and goodness.
] |
[Old
Version:
"The 'Asuras', as they've become known,
are spirits of denial.
They deny life, love, beauty, harmony and goodness.] |
This energy seek [seeks?] death,
and hates everything that keeps it from its deepest desire of permanent
oblivion.
[Previous version: They
seek death, and they hate everything that keeps them from their
deepest desire of permanent oblivion.]
"Denial energy has existed [old
version: exists] on
every level of Creation,
including the physical
where they manifest as viruses and cancers.
The strategy of the asuric energy [old
version: of the asuras]
is to satisfy the desire for death and oblivion
[old version: their
strategy is to find death and oblivion]]
through the destruction of the environment that keeps them alive
~
Manifestation [previous
version: Creation [missing in the old version]
]
"The energy was awakened from what it had thought
[old version: "They were awakened
from what they had thought]
was an eternal sleep
when the magnetic essence moved and I responded.
The denial energy attached
itself
[Previous
version: "They attached themselves]
to the sense of startle, confusion and annoyance
in my Light,
and it brought its attitudes of hatred, death and destruction
with it.
[previous version:
and they brought their attitudes of
hatred, death and destruction with them.]
The message in the [previously:
their] energy is,
'You have disturbed me, and now I must kill you.'
Although I wasn't aware
that I was doing it,
this was the painful message that the Mother received
when she first received my Light.
"I had been unaware of the existence of this intensely
compressed energy
until I met 'the asuras' [previously:
the asuras] in the Void.
This was the place Grandfather had found for them to rest
in peace.
|
[Old
Version:
They attached themselves to the sense
of annoyance in my Light,
and they brought their attitude with them.
Their message was,
"You have disturbed me, and now I must kill you."
Although I wasn't aware
that I was sending this message,
this is what Desire received
when she first received my Light.
"I had been unaware of their existence
until I met them in the Void.
This was the place Grandfather had found for them. ]
|
The denial energy
they represent could not be part of
his perfect Creation
[old: They
could not be part of his perfect Creation]
because it [old: they]
did not want to be there.
He created eternal life for all who wanted it,
the asuric energy [old: the
asuras] wanted death and oblivion.
"Grandfather had it so that love would
reign,
but then love's denial could only hate.
He created beauty, harmony and goodness.
Denial wanted destruction.
"He and Grandmother
determined the right place for denial energy to be the void,
because there the asuric energy [previously:
the asuras] could find what they truly desired
~,
the final peace of non-existence, their own oblivion.
"The Grandparents [previously:
They] did this in the
early stages of their original Creation,
before there was any thought of any other Creations.
"When the Mother and I first emerged
as the two creative essences of this Creation
[previously: as
separate essences],
we came into being out of the void ~,
the right place of denial energy,
the 'asuras' [previously:
the asuras'] home ~
and of course the very place
this energy felt certain it would be forever undisturbed.
[previously: they
felt certain they would be undisturbed.]
|
[Old
Version:
He had it so that love would reign,
and they could only hate.
He created beauty, harmony and goodness.
They wanted destruction.
"He determined their right place to be the Void,
because there they could find what they truly wanted,
non-existence and oblivion.
"He did this in the early stages of his Creation,
before there was any thought of another Creation.
"When the Mother and I first emerged as separate essences,
we came into being out of the Void,
the Asuras' home,
and of course the very place
they were certain to be undisturbed.]
|
pp25
For a very long time I was perplexed
by what seemed to be impossible encounters
with pure evil.
I know now
that coming through the concentrated denial energy of the
Void
has been the only way
for a completely new Creation to come into existence.
"We had to emerge from the void,
and in doing so,
we disturbed the denial spirits,
the 'uns' of Grandfather's Creation.
|
[Old
Version:
I know now
that there was no other way
for something new to exist,
outside of Grandfather's Creation.
"We had to come out of the Void,
and in doing so,
we disturbed the 'uns' of Grandfather's Creation.]
|
Once disturbed,
this energy was intensely fierce and vicious, and of course it still
is.
[previously: they
were fierce and vicious, and of course they still are.]
It believes the only way back to its beloved oblivion
[previously: They
believe the only way back to their beloved oblivion]
is to tear down and destroy the Creation
whose activities destroyed its [previously:
their] resting place.
"Denial energy has 'infected' some
of the Mother essence
[previously:
"Denial energy is purely spirit
essence that has 'infected' Mother essence.]
and this is why it had
seemed to be the apparently separate beings
I've called 'asuras' and 'denial spirits.'
[the entire sentence is missing
in the previous version]
Judgments against self or others is a form of denial.
Doing judgment release as I've suggested
is an effective way of moving denial energy out of your
emotional, Will essence.
[previously: is
an effective way of moving denial energy out of your Will
essence]
To release the more concentrated, deep denial energy
[previously:To release
the more concentrated denial energy represented by the asuras,]
it is good to follow my suggestions in the practice of 'true
sacrifice.'
"We have inherited Grandfather's denial
spirits,
and they hate us for being here.
And now we must help them find their right
place again.
It's not here.
This Creation,
and those of yours and your peers
that will follow
have a different program.
|
[Old
Version:
"We have inherited Grandfather's denial spirits,
and they hate us for being here.
And now we must find a new right place for them.
It's not here.
This Creation, and the ones that will follow it,
have a different program. ]
|
Like Grandfather's Creation,
yours [Old Version: ours]
will be one of life and love, beauty and freedom.
"Unlike Grandfather's Creation, however,
this and the Creations to follow will not be perfect.
We will go on endlessly evolving. |
[Old
Version:
"Unlike Grandfather's Creation,
however,
ours will not be perfect,
so we will go on endlessly evolving.] |
And
best of all, we'll be here in physical form to do it.
"The energy of hatred [previously:
hate] and denial does not
wish to be here with us.
The asuric energy [previously:
The asuras] want the oblivion
that Grandfather had originally promised them.
"For
the healing work to succeed and not be reversed,
a complete separation is needed between denial energy, the Void~
and everything else.
[previously:
a complete separation is needed between
denial energy and everything else.] |
[Old
Version:
The
beings of hate and denial do not want to be here with us,
they want the oblivion that Grandfather had promised them.
True healing requires that there be a complete separation
between us and the Asuras.
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"Now,
you might ask
how wholeness is to be achieved if something is left out.
This is a good question
and it leads to the most crucial understanding of all.
Wholeness has an opposite,
and it's opposite must also exist
if wholeness does.
Fragmentation is the opposite of wholeness.
With
only one whole being,
fragmentation has been the only way
to experience presence with another being.
[Old Version: fragmentation
has been necessary for the existence of any other beings.]
Cosmic Loneliness
"The impetus for Grandfather and the original
Mother
to spawn another Creation
was the sense of aloneness they experienced.
[Old Version:
was their sense of aloneness.]
When they had achieved perfection in complete union,
they were one being again, just like Original Heart.
[Old Version:
they were one being]
And they were alone.
[Old Version added: 'One
is the loneliest number,' says one of your songs. And this is true.]
"Grandfather and the original
Mother
have since found a solution to their isolation.
[Old Version: have found
a solution to their isolation.]
The Mother of this Creation and I are
the beginning of it.
And you humans who are in physical existence are the next stage
of it.
[Previously:
And you who are in physical existence are the next stage of it.]
pp2
"The
plan, of course, is that Deity have peers.
"The fragmentation
of Deity
[Old Version:
Deity fragmenting]
so that parts of us could
[Old Version:
can]
have
separate existence
has been only a step in the process.
Fragmentation is not the solution to cosmic loneliness.
Wholeness of separate beings is.
"Although
I didn't know it at the time,
my fragmentation into Lucifer and Ahriman
were part of the plan Grandfather and Grandmother
had foreseen [Old Version:
created]
as a correction to the perfection
of their original Creation.
pp26b
Another part of the plan is my
redemption
[Old Version: my eventual redemption]
of both Lucifer and Ahriman.
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"And this includes your own spirit's
redemption of its denials,
assuming your intention is wholeness.
"When Spirit is whole at both the personal
and cosmic levels,
[on January 7, 2013, I detected
another modification:
"When Spirit is whole at both the personal and universal
levels,
I will be able to align completely with the Mother
and all of her essence in you~
as we consummate our union in your wholeness.
New Heart then emerges in you, manifesting as Body
~
as you embody the Father or Mother
of Manifestation.
"Redemption of my denials
means
that I redeem
and own for myself
all of the essence,
qualities, traits and behaviors
I'd put outside of love.
"No more projection,
no more separation of being.
"Redemption also means
that I take responsibility for the actions of my former denials,
and thereby reclaim their powers,
bringing them inside of love.
The Spirit polarity will be united,
with neither Ahriman nor Lucifer at the head.
The Godhead is loving Light's
right place. |
[Old
Version:
and then the consummation
of complete union with the Mother
and all of her essence.
"Redemption means
that I redeem
and own for myself
all of their essence,
qualities, traits and behaviors.
"No more projection,
no more separation of being.
Redemption also means
that as I take responsibility for their actions,
I also reclaim their power as my own.
The Spirit polarity will be united,
with neither Ahriman nor Lucifer at the head.
The Godhead is my right place.
|
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[Old
Version:
"My shadow, Ahriman, has been
at the Godhead for a long time.
As I told you, he's a clever devil,
and one of his deceptions has been
to get us all to believe
that Lucifer has some kind of mysterious magic powers
that enable him to run everything.
It's actually Ahriman who has collected all the power on Earth,
and part of how he's done it
has been to hide his existence
and make us think it was all Lucifer's doing.
"Unlike Lucifer,
the source of Ahriman's power
has not been in his co-option
and undermining of the Mother essence.
Rather it's been in his alliance with the Asuras.
When I left the Void,
after separating Lucifer from myself,
part of Ahriman stayed behind
and bargained with the Asuras.
He told them that he had the power of God,
and with this power he would help them destroy Creation
so they could resume their eternal slumber,
never to be disturbed again.
They agreed to follow and serve him,
and they're known now as Satan and his legions of demons."] |
"The
loneliness
experienced by Original Heart
and in the Creation of Grandfather and Grandmother
will not happen this time in manifestation.
There are many humans
who are willing and capable
of embodying the Mother and Spirit
here on Earth
as New Heart.
"This endeavor is a
collaboration between Humanity and Deity.
It is the consummation of the healing work
and the realization of Original Heart's intention
that there be not just one,
but many whole beings in manifestation~
all peers in their greatness and wholeness.
"This movement of healing into wholeness
begins with humans working collaboratively and in concert
with Deity.
[previously: begins
with several humans working in concert with Deity.]
Once denied Spirit is redeemed
and all of the lost Will reclaimed,
the wholeness you embody then spreads quickly to others.
[previously:
your wholeness then spreads quickly to others.]
The further movement of wholeness spreading then
sets the stage for the realization of the
Mother's Dream,
and the relatively sudden transformation
[previously: and
the sudden transformation]
of the dominate paradigm on this planet~
so that love reigns in all encounters
and every wish truly desired is granted without delay."
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[missing
in the Old Version] |
January
7, 2013 -
The last two lines still cause me to feel abandoned and excluded.
I just cannot bear to hear this bla-bla about "love reigns"
and "every desire will be granted",
which is so rampant in all the "messages" from "spiritual
entities" or "spiritual people".
And though "Godchannel" differs, in that it constantly
points out the conditions for this to happen,
I cannot bear to hear it at this time.
I'll give just one example, why I feel, that even "God"
is not aware of logical "conditions":
If my desire is, that my creations and gifts are "received"
by others,
how can they be "received", if receiving them is not the
desire of those whom I want to receive them?
- see the metaphor of Cain/Kayin, which I keep pointing out again
and again, especially
in these days .
Next:
Lesson Three - Part Three: Death
Lesson Three Discussion
Return to Part One: Ahriman.
Spirit Polarity, Lesson Two. | Quest
for the Mother, Lesson One
Lesson Three Discussion |
Lessons One & Two Discussion.
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