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The Mother liked the attitude of the Will of the Rainbow Spirits because She didn't like getting blamed for everything. Here were finally some Will Spirits who were not apologizing and feeling guilty about themselves like the Fourth Order of Angels had done. She was so happy to see some Will presence speaking Her own point of view and having some spunk about it, that She did not let Herself see how defensive they were really being to cover their fear of being the least preferred of all spirits.

The Will polarity of the Rainbow spirits had been judged against from the very beginning for having taken after the Mother. All the spirits thought that I favored the ones who took after Me and that I was in the power position in Creation. They all had gotten the impression that I did not love the Mother as much as I loved the children who took after Me. Therefore, there was fear that children who took after the Mother were the least favored by Me, even after the Mother.

When the Mother spoke out in favor of Will presence, the spirits who took after Me had some fear that they were rejected by the Mother. Defense on each side began to emerge as a growing tendency to deny the importance of the other side. By the time this reached the bottom of the line, which was judged to be the Will polarity of the Rainbow Spirits in the colors of yellow, orange and red, these spirits had taken in so much judgment and denial, and had so much guilt about themselves, that they began to look quite dark and smudged in an unpleasant way.

I had preference for all the colors to accept themselves and glow brightly the way they had done when they had first emerged, but it seemed there was nothing I could do here. The colors who had judged themselves to be superior to the others were all clumping together to try to make sure there was no room for other colors to push their way in. They did not want to accept even one little spirit because they were all afraid that even one would then try to make room for the rest of his kind. The red spirits, who were the most frightened that I might eliminate them if I really decided there were too many Rainbow Spirits, had made pacts with one another to stick together for their mutual defense and survival, even if they had to go to the extremes of pushing others out of the way. Rather than have a few reds survive by hiding in with the purples, red decided they would rather displace all the purples if they could. They wanted to stick together because they felt the most threatened. The red spirits later felt guilt that they behaved this way in front of Me, but they were

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very afraid that they would not survive unless they fought for their lives. The red spirits were not wrong in feeling that they had to fight for their lives because they were being given the most denial. Some have tried to make alliances with purple by pointing out that without red, purple does not exist.

Orange Spirits of the Will polarity were the next in line for receiving denials in the Rainbow Spirits' pecking order. They got blamed for being more sexually passionate than was considered to be attractive or acceptable to Spirit. They had throats and tongues, and they were blamed for being too involved in oral and sexual appetites.

The rest of the spirits talked about red and orange as though they were not part of the rest of the group. These two colors got blamed for most of the things that are judged against on Earth in the nature of man . They were said to be warring by nature, clanish, pushy, passionate, sensual sexually intense, orally insatiable and emotionally extreme.

Rage is the most denied emotion in these orders and it is also the source of their greatest power. These spirits need to give themselves acceptance now and bring their denied essence within the light of God. They have had My love for longer than they know, but they had a rough beginning, because I feared I didn't know how to give them the light they needed. They have struggled to survive on their own for a long time and I want them to receive the help they need now. They have great power to survive, to be physically vital and to express creatively if they have enough self-acceptance to be able to open and receive the light they need. Expressing the feelings they felt then, when they were so judged against, is an important part of their healing so that they can open to the light they need.

The other colors argued their points, but did not take as many actions as the more threatened oranges and reds did. No matter how they were judged against by the other colors, each color had reasons to believe within themselves that they were the best and the most important. The indigo spirits had not said much at all during any of this and they felt they were superior because of their composure and inner strength. The blue spirits have always believed they are the greatest expressionists there are. The indigo spirits have always quietly dismissed the self-importance of blue because they believe blue is nothing without them to supply the inner model for their outer performance. The purple spirits have always maintained that they are the best because they receive

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inspiration directly from Me, and the rest of the colors just implement their instructions. Purple-whites always believed they received more of my personal attention than any of the others, but knowing they had red in them has made them wonder how I manifest Spirit this way if I do not like red.

Everyone needs to know that I love red; I just did not know how to handle the feelings I first had when I had to trust Will and Body to guide Me into manifestation, when I was so used to being the guide Myself. I know now that red and orange need to move their rage over being denied acceptance for their right places for so long. Red and orange are not wrong to have the great intensity they have and it is necessary that they have it. They have the strength necessary to anchor Me in manifestation, hold Me there and allow Me to survive. Red has the power to hold open the space needed to survive and orange has the power to creatively fill that space with what is needed to survive there. These spirits only become warring when their survival is threatened. They have always felt that if they have to attack the ones threatening the survival of others, they will do that. They need to understand, though, how important self-acceptance is in being able to live without having others attack them.

Yellow was not wrong in having the merriment of sunshine in its emergence pattern. I have finally gotten these spirits to listen to Me, but their Lost Will still needs to understand that they are the Heart of the Mother. Some of what yellow felt when it wanted to displace green was that they were heart also and they were not being recognized for it. The Heart of the Mother is the intuitional center that feels what balanced action for the Mother is. Green is the Heart of All and must receive from both the Mother and the Father. Green has trouble maintaining its color if the other spirits do not maintain their colors. Green is meant to balance everything from all the colors and give it the manifestation needed. The Rainbow Spirits need to discover their own heart by balancing the Spirit and the Will polarity. There is a lot of healing to do first, because the colors have been muddy and denied for so long.

Healing needs to happen now, rather than putting it off in favor of guilt punishing the Rainbow Spirits any more for failing to see themselves as worthy enough in the sight of God just for being who they are. If the Rainbow Spirits are now ready to heal and begin manifesting their gifts instead of their denials, they have gifts of great beauty to give. Having gone down so far, many of the Rainbow Spirits envision healing as finally com-

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ing out on top. This would not be balance either. Any swing of the pendulum always swings back again until balance is found. The swing upward has increased guilt and the swing down has increased blame. Neither has worked out so far. The balance of Spirit and Will is important now because neither one can live without the other, and harmony can never be found unless they balance in the Heart. I have gone the whole road of imbalance with the Will, and for those who would like My help, i have much more information to give. What I am giving now is what can be given in this first book on Original Cause.

At the time of the emergence of the Rainbow Spirits, I gave them what light I could and they received what light they could accept. There needs to be acceptance for this now. Guilt and blame are not necessary, but these must be moved in the Lost Will before healing balance can be found. Fear and terror lie underneath guilt and anger and rage lie underneath blame. Getting guilt and blame to move means accepting the emotions because denial made space for their presence.

Because the Rainbow Spirits felt so guilty, they were looking for a way to blame others to get out from under the feeling of guilt. It has not worked because blame and guilt are not really different from one another. When guilt has gone as far as it can go in one direction, it begins to shift back in another. The one receiving this presence perceives it as guilt, and the one pushing it away perceives its form as blame, but the guilt itself has not changed.

The Rainbow Spirits feared that I blamed them fr the things I have been discussing here, and when they could no longer tolerate the feeling, they sought to shift it back by blaming Me. The denial present did not allow Me to address the core of the problem here with the Rainbow Spirits either. I could not even get the Rainbow Spirits to let Me straighten out their mixed up colors. Although they inbsisted that their colors were mixed the way they wanted them to be, they really feared that they might be found to be colors I did not favor if they allowed Me to straighten them out. They didn't even want to admit to the fear in case it might turn out to be right.

I found that Lucifer had spoken to the fears of all the spirits in ways that had made them afraid to speak of them again, because he had been able to make spirits feel their fears were right. While I had been trying to help the Rainbow Spirits traighten out their misunderstandings, the father of Manifestation had

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been trying to help them with problems they were having maintaining their forms. He had not had any more success than I had had.

The Mother had been trying to get the Rainbow Spirits to accept their Wills as part of themselves, and She had had even less luck than I had had. The Rainbow Spirits all had fear that they had emerged wrong and they had blamed their Wills for having moved at the wrong time. The Spirit polarity would not accept the Will polarity, because then they would have had to take responsibility for the movement of their Wills. The Spirit polarity felt guilty that they had come forth in response to feelings that I had not seemed to accept, and they felt that blaming their Wills made them look more acceptable to Me. No matter how We tried to allay their fears and straighten out their misunderstandings, We could not do it then.

The Rainbow Spirits, like most of the other spirits, were going to have to have more experience before they would be able to see that they had misinterpreted My intent. I had loving intent, whether I understood everything I was doing at first or not. The Rainbow Spirits had loving intent and We all had guilt. At that time, We did not realize that guilt was an unloving thing to have. We did not know what was going to happen as a result of the presence of guilt. We had many problems manifesting the Creation and We have many problems to heal now, but they are healable if there is intent to heal them.

Forgiveness is a very important part of this healing, because it is not possible to go back and change what has already happened except by changing the way we feel about it. The Will cannot be pressured to forgive before it is really ready because the forgiveness would not be real, but intent to reach forgiveness can allow intense old emotions to move without continuing old hostilities. The Will has to go through all of its pain and then forgive everything. Judging the Will, no matter how subtly, for how long it takes to do this, is not giving it the acceptance it needs. Spirit has to respond to the Will with the feelings it has also. Spirit has responsibility for causing the Will's response and Spirit has to let the Will know how it feels about the Will's response to it. You have to understand, it is not a one way street to balance this. The Spirit cannot just preach to the Will and the Will cannot just rave on without Spirit helping Will to understand itself.

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the Spirit is not an easy thing to do, but the Will must be accepted for how it feels now. The Will has a valid case for blaming the Spirit, but the Will must move the blame and forgive the Spirit for not knowing what effect denial was going to have on the Will. You have to understand that behavior is not the issue here, misunderstandings are. In other words, there is no reason to forgive yourself for having sexual orgasm that was the greatest thrill of your life; its is important to forgive yourself for judging that how you achieved this was not acceptable in the sight of God.

This single judgment has done more to reduce the presence of the light on Earth than any other single thing that has ever happened there. I understand how spiritual leaders have thought that having sexual relationsships has increased the darkness on Earth, but they have confused the form and the essence and mistakenly judged the forms. It is not the act of having sexual relations that has increased the presence of death on Earth; it is the act of having sexual relations in the presence of denial that has increased the presence of death on earth. Sex has to be accepted now for what it is meant to be; an act of love that increases the presence of the light. When you have no guilt involved, you have no possibility of having a child unless you want to have one. Do not assume that you have no further need for birth control once you have received this understanding. You have guilt or you would not have ever even thought that it was possible to have an unwanted child. Pretending that every child that comes is wanted is not convincing evidence that you do not have guilt either.

SOME JUDGMENTS THAT NEED RELEASE NOW

I want to give some examples of how some people have manifested sexual guilt in their lives. The examples I'm going to use are groups of people that are known in the United States because they have received media coverage. The media coverage has made them well known enough to be examples from which many can learn. Before I discuss them, I would like to list some judgments that need to be given up now. "I forgive myself for having believed for so long that ~~~" is the preface for all of these judgments:

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I have been favored by God over others, or God has favored others over Me.
I have more light than I should have, or I have less light than I should have.
I was given(or took) moe than I should have, or I was given (0r took) less than I should have.
I emerged in the wrong place (either too soon or too late).
I have no way to heal this now.
I have too little essence left to gather myself together again.
I have no guidance to help me through this.
I have been forsaken by God, just like everyone else on earth
I have no recourse because i have only myself to blame, or, others are to blame and they don't care about me.
I hate having to feel pain because once my real pain starts, it never ends.
I hate God for not letting me know what emergence was going to be like.
I hate God for not parenting me in such a way that I could avoid the problems I am having now.
I hate God for not being there when I need Him, or I hate myself because I'm the God that was not there for myself.
I hate God for not making me understand what He was trying to teach me.
I hate myself for not knowing how to live the way I want to live.
I hate myself for not being somebody else that I could love better.
I hate everyone else for giving me so little help.
I had to let guilt tell me that it was not right to have the feelings I have.
I had to let gulit tell me to sacrifice myself for everyone else.
I had to let guilt tell me I was never good enough to have, get, be what I wanted.

You have many more personal judgments, but I would like you to know that you all have these judgments in common on Earth. Even if you think that you do not have these judgments, you have them in one form or another.

There are many on Earth who think that guilt is not a problem for them anymore, and it is largely for these people that I am going to give the examples I am now going to give although

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everyone has something to learn here. Just as you may think that you have the understandings you need already, you must learn to understand what I am telling you in a new light. I have given many understandings many times and they have not been understood or I would not have to be giving them again now. It is important to understand what judgment release really is and I have given you the information you need if you can learn to apply it.

I would like to mention the word "release" before I go on. Release to most people has meant letting go or getting free and this is right. The manner in which this is done is all important. If you releae yourself by getting rid of part of yourself, you have not released yourself at all; you have only gotten rid of something. Anything you get rid of will come back later, whether it has to change its form or not. What is yours is yours and cannot be gotten rid of. You have responsibility for it and no one else can take it in and handle it for you. Even Jesus did not die for your sins. He cannot do it for you, drugs cannot do it for you, affirmations cannot do it for you, divorce cannot do it for you, abortion cannot do it for you.

Getting rid of the form of something that has caused you trouble in the past does not mean that your essence will not create it again. Sometimes, you may not recognize the new forms this creation takes on at first, but sooner or later, if you have loving intent to learn, you will recognize the recurring patterns. The patterns are what you need to look at to recognize the underlying judgments.

For example, if you have a long string of lovers and none of them give [sic] you the enjoyment you seek, you need to realize the problem is your own sexual guilt and not the partners. If you have guilt your partners will also have guilt, but they are not the cause of your problems. If you have one you can trust, though, you may be the mutual solution for one another. Anything you bring forward will trigger the complementary pattern in your partner if healing work is going to be possible there. If this does not happen, do not pursue the issue with that person, because you are facing denial in another that you have not recognized in yourself yet, and you will get blamed for everything.

You have to realize that it is not right to go forth with emotional release just because you have read about it. You must feel that it is safe to do it in the place and form in which you are going to do it. Release is a matter of letting old patterns move within

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you and express outwardly as actions when they need to. This is not the same thing as getting rid of a pattern by shoving it out, for this is what created Lost Will in the first place. Lost Will now must be healed by being taken back in by the ones who pushed it out, and healed in such a way that Lost Will can change its outlook and increase its understandings. It is not possible to let Lost Will go on anymore in the form it has taken outside of the spirits to whom it belongs. Most of the Lost Will has become destuctively dark, because it has been deprived of light for so long. Its desperation is because its survival is threatened.

Light is necessary for life, although Lucifer told many it was not, and that they should not need it. He shamed many spirits into thinking they were like babies who refused to be weaned when they wanted to continue receiving my light instead of making their own. This also has to be forgiven now. Receiving light from Me is not wrong, it is necessary. If I am not fully present when you open in orgasm, you do not take in light, you take in death. If you have some part of yourself that you do not accept, and everyone does, I am not fully present.

Does this mean that you have to give up sex until you are fully healed? This would be ideal if you could do it, but as I have said, living is a question of balance. The denial involved in suppressing sexual energy would not promote healing anymore than having sex in the presence of denial would. Because of this, there was a long time during which I felt uncertain about how healing could take place. I finally realized that intent makes the difference. Gaining understanding also helps. As long as most people believed that having sex was taking them to hell, they went ahead and helped themselves along their way. Now if people find out that it is alright to have sex in the presence of love, they will be able to start increasing the light. Getting alignment in the part of you that is still vibrating is a most important first step. Then reaching the layers of denial as they have readiness to unfold themselves to you is the next phase of healing. If you have intent to heal, you need to know that it is not wrong to go at the speed that feels right to you.

If you have an urgent driven feeling about the healing that you need to do, you need to go to the fear that lies underneath this. The urgency is not wrong, it is letting you know that you are terribly afraid for your own survival. If you are afraid for your survival, you have good reason to be, but giving the presence of the fear the recognition and aceptance that it needs and allow-

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ing it movement will strengthen your ability to survive, which will, in turn, calm your fear. The fear is trying to say that you have not been responding to your needs enough to make the Will feel you are able to survive. Urgency means you are now recognizing this, but driving yourself to heal will not allow the rest you need, and the Will will still be frightened that you are not sensitive to your needs. Urgency has a place, but it is not to gain control of you at the expense of everything else.

On the other hand, if you are talking healing, but not getting down to business, you have fear also. You have to go to the fear and let it move. Guilt may be another reason; you may have so much guilt telling you your emotions are unacceptable, dangerous, too intense of whatever your judgments are against them, that you may need to start by recognizing judgments and giving release here first. Some call this giving yourself permission. You will have to accompany this approach by feeling your fear of emotional expression.

FRAGMENTATION INCARNATING INTO SUCCESSIVE GENERATIONS

Now, to the examples of generations in America: I have chosen these examples because they have received enough public attention that they are known to many, because they had denials that need to be looked at now, and, not surprisingly, because they are incarnations of groups I have already mentioned in this book. These people all had denials that incarnated as children in their families, which is why I want to give these examples now.

When sexual relationships take place in the presence of denial, you may not get the spirit you think you are going to get when you have a child. Most of the children born of these relationships are not really spirits; they are fragments of spirits or denied Will of the spirits involved. They have karma with their parents and they have reflections to give. How lovingly or unlovingly the reflections are given is dependent upon the judgments held in the situation and the amount of love present in the judgments. If these families have love among the fragments and just lack understanding on how to keep fragmentation from happening, they feel more complete as a family unit. If there is lack of love and acceptance toward the essence that has fragmented, these families are more comfortable separated from one another than they

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are when they are together. Some of these people have so much guilt that they do not allow themselves to know whether they like one another or not.

These spirits fragmented when they felt they could not handle everything at once. Some of the denials held by the fragments are loved by the parental part of the spirit and some are not. Some of the greatness these spirits originally had was denied into fragments when guilt told them to diminish themselves. The progression of generations here followed the progression of the denials in the parental parts of the spirits involved. What one generation could not accept in itself, the next generation reflected in a state of denial.

The first generation involved here came to America in droves. They had an adventuresome, inventive pioneering spirit that wanted to make themselves a better life.They tried various life-styles as farmers, pioneers, craftsmen and artisans, and merchants and traders. They began building America into what it is now. Some of these people had an affinity to the Indians in many ways that are not recorded in history or brought forward much anymore. The problems between these newcomers to America and the Indians were, at first, basically because there were so many of the newcomers that the Indians felt crowded by their lifestyles. The Indians had the feeling of being pushed back to make room for the newcomers and these Indians then made other tribes feel pressured to move back also.

The newcomers had left Europe to gain religious, personal and economic freedom. They had been unable to prevail with the establishment there and had decided to seek a better life for themselves by leaving their problems in Europe. These people had a desire for a fresh start, and a lifestyle that was less restricted by rules and limitations. They also had religious misunderstandings and sexual guilt that were not moving at the time. These spirits had much of their Wills in a state of denial, just as they have had from the very beginning. They wanted to allow only the feelings that felt good to them, and they believed these emotions were the only ones that were acceptable to God.

These people had sexual energy, but they did not believe it was right, so they held it back as much as they could. Even so, they had many children because the guilt involved here dictated this as the price they had to pay for having sexual relations. The children these people parented reflected their parents' guilts to them and made the parents feel that their guilts were right. What

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the parents thought they had left behind in Europe had very quickly reincarnated into their lives again. Their children had the desire to bring limitations and rules back into their lives again, and one of the main arguments they used was that there were now too many people to continue with the old ways of letting individuals govern their own lives. This generation wanted to pass laws, fence the land, regulate business and increase government in general.

This guilt generation told their parents that they were going to have to step aside, because their children had the ideas needed to organize the country and to give it the form it needed to progress into the vision their parents had given, but could not manifest without their children's help.

The parents here had faced this reflection before in Europe and had no better idea how to heal it there than they had when they faced it again in their children. The guilt was not recognized then, nor was it known that underneath the guilt lay denied emotions that were empowering their fragments. For example, fear was being held in a state of denial when these people left Europe. Their fear had been judged as something that would hold them back. In trying to leave their fears behind instead of taking them in and healing them, the fears had received the judgment that they were not to move and show themselves for what they were because fears were limiting, unacceptable and a sign of weakness.

The children who were holding these denied fears did not then present themselves as being afraid. Instead, they had a very annoying look of weakness to them that most of the parents did not allow themselves to see or respond to. This next generation continually justified itself in the face of every argument their parents could present and had a feeling of self-righteousness which was actually infuriating, although the response to this was denied as unloving. If response had been given in the presence of the unrecognized guilt, the parents would have been punished for being unloving toward their children.

These children succeeded in having their way. They placed limitations on life in America that were designed to limit movement to the levels that the fears could handle. The fears, then, did not have to feel themselves or be triggered into motion, but the expansionism and freedom their parents had felt without this reflection could not continue either. Since balance had not been found within, the imbalance was also manifesting outwardly, by

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giving first one side the upperhand, and then the other side. The problem with this approach is that there is no movement or evolution involved, only compromises and a taking of turns, so to speak.

This generation of guilt was holding denied fear and also denied anger. The guilt that was not allowing the emotions to move made it appear as though fear and anger were entities, separate from one another and unable to mingle and balance because of the lack of real movement. [see Green Book p.185]

The fear fragments made and enforced the rules, sometimes with the help of certain kinds of anger fragments. Most of the denied anger manifested as a parallel batch of fragments whose lives made it appear as though all the limitations and rules were necessary.

When this guilt generation of denied emotion had children, they gave birth to more denials. They had children that were fragments of denied greatness that wanted to rush ahead of everything that was trying to hold them back. Their parents were very strict with them, and tried to invoke religion to control them.

These children began in small ways and grew into the great era of entrepreneurs, builders and far-sighted investment bankers. Their imbalances made it appear that another round of limitations was needed.

The next generation was another guilt generation that fenced the ranges, moved the Indians onto reservations, had a war over States' Rights, and forced law and order into places where it had not been before. And, of course, the anger fragments made it look like the shutting down of expansionism was right, because their abuses were seen more extreme than the imbalances of the fragments of denied greatness.

When this guilt generation had children, they had another generation of denials. The children born to these parents were also fragments of the first generation that I gave as examples here; they were also part of the denied greatness I mentioned earlier. The parental parts of the spirits who denied this greatness in themselves did it because they are not able to handle all of their own greatness unless they move their fear of their own greatness and power.

When the self cannot accept something in itself, it feels it is wrong to have it. This feeling allows guilt to move in and tell the spirit involved that it is right to deny itself in this way. Guilt told these spirits that they had too high an opinion of themselves,

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that they were too much and that they needed to diminish themselves. Guilt also told them that the fear was to let them know that they were not right to go ahead as they were.

Fear is meant to hold you back, but moving fear does not hold you back indefinitely; it allows you to go ahead as you are ready to. Moving fear does not mean getting it out of the way and going ahead in spite of it. When this happens, the fear goes into a state of denial where it does not move. It then acts like a separate entity that holds the spirit back from what it wants to do because that is the way the fear has been judged.

In this case, the spirits who denied it, got ahead of it for a little while and then it manifested in front of them and began telling the spirits whose fear it was, why the fear would have to put limits on them again. The generation that had the denied fear and the guilt about having the fear also had plenty of sexual repression involved in the denials it was holding. There was also a parallel batch of fragments holding the denied anger which gave the reflection that it was not right to be free because some would abuse the freedom.

Ghe generation of denied greatness gave the impression of being less sexually repressed than their parents, but they had overridden their guilt to give this impression. Their guilt manifested in the form of increased diseases which made them think that their parents had been right. This generation also had an increase in reproductive problems that gave the impression that birth needed to take place in hospitals or it might not be safe.

Although this generation had many inventors, innovators and creative people that brought America into what could be termed the "modern world", they still had denials involved that did not allow them the success they could have if they attained the balance that healing is needing to bring now.

These people had a generation of guilt for parents who held them back, in many ways, from attaining the full measure of success they were seeking. The generations of guilt stayed in power for a long time by telling their parents they must step aside in their favor and then telling their own children that they must listen to and respect the authority of their elders because they didn't have enough sense to see that they were headstrong and about to run away with themselves. The fragments of greatness got held back by the fear and guilt of the ones who had originally judged themselve unable to handle all of their greatness at once. The generations of guilt held back the generations of great-

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ness and separated them from one another because those spirtis could not go past their own fear and guilt in this way.

I am giving a simplified version here, but you can begin to see how individual spirits projected parts of themselves forward until the projecting parts are pulled into the line up again. The spirits involved here have been attempting to learn something, and now it is time for them to understand what they have been doing.

The generation of innovators also had a World War to fight, but I do not want to go into that now because it will make the example too complex. You will get the complexities as you go along. When this generation had children, they had a guilt reflection also. This generation tried to do everything right. They wanted to have lives that were the most proper ever lived. They had presence in Victorian times, but I will not go into that now. They tried to give the American Dream an evenness and conformity that their children later rebelled against. They also had a war to fight and they won it. They were honorable and dutiful. They raised their families in the suburbs, safe from everything they hated in the city. They had a feeling they had to do right by their children. They gave them everything, including a good education, from the very beginning. They got involved in the schools and in their communities. They got the people they liked elected by going out and voting en masse. They had intent to give the American Dream the best thing it had had yet; another generation of hard workers who were even better educated than they were.

That begat the Hippies instead. They were horrified to find that everything they had worked to give their children was going unappreciated. Their children were throwing it all away for drugs, sex, and rock and roll. The parents thought the children had a feeling that nothing was good enough for them because they didn't appreciate what they had been given. They didn't want to work; they wanted to loaf instead. They didn't want to pay taxes; they wanted to take the government for everything they could. They didn't care about law and order; they demonstrated and started riots. Instant gratification was all they cared about and they didn't care how they got it. The rebellion of their children caught these parents almost totally by surprise. They had thought their children were going off to war and they burned their draft cards instead.

The Hippies, and those who sympathized with them, had a

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desire to restore some color to life and most of their parents did not appreciate the creativity in this at all. They wanted to punish them and force them back into the mold they had so carefully prepared them for. Many hated the Hippies at first for cheating them of the fruits of their life's efforts. These parents wanted to punish these children and they had the law and order establishment to do it. They had a desire for them to have to go and fight, whether they wanted to or not, and they had the draft to make them do it. They wanted to stop them from using drugs, and they had the police to do it. They could not stop them from having sex though. All the sexual denials they held so dear to their proper life were being thrown in their faces and they could not seem to stop it. The parents hated these children for that especially. Hysterectomies took place in record numbers on young people during those years. The hatred the parents were feeling got denied into others who were willing to do what the parents' hatred wanted done to teach their kids a lesson. The kids' reactionary sexual expression had the denied guilt that drew the punishment.

The kids got mad but they did not win. They got put down whether they knew it or not. Who were these kids and where did they come from?

These kids were the generation I already mentioned who had started this country, and also a good many Indians who felt they could not live the way they wanted to live in the Indian form anymore. Why did the Hippies fail again to gain and maintain the freedom they so much wanted to have? Because they had denials they had fragmented out and guilts they had tried to push out, which manifested as the ones that opposed them. The ones who brought the Hippies down from every trip they took were manifestations of their own denials. which took whatever from their judgments instructed them to take.

The generations on both sides had the guilt that manifested in between and told them that they had to hold themselves back, that it was wrong to expand freely, and that they had to have regulations and limits put on them so that they would go forward in an orderly manner. The guilt fragments reflected judgments held by those they were limiting. There were many judgments here, but the core consisted of the belief that Free Will was immoral and selfish and that doing what they wanted to do was chaotic and impossible in the presence of others. Fear and anger that was not moving held these judgments in place so that guilt could use them to oppose freedom of movement here.

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The judgments were held in a state of denial by the ones who had denied their emotions in favor of their desire to go forward. The fragments of Lost Will manifested the reflections that made all of the judgments seem to be true. Guilt holds back people who have not moved the reasons they need to be held back.

SOME UNDERSTANDINGS ON THE ROLE OF SEX IN FRAGMENTATION

Healing needs this fragmentation to end. To end it, sexual relations must become wholly acceptable in the sight of God, no matter what form they take, and self-acceptance must replace denial. To do this, you need to recognize the denials involved which are not recognized, or the outward manifestations of opposition to your purpose could not be happening.

It is important to understand that orgasm can manifest fragments, whether you have a child or not. The energy involved can go to another fragment who already has affinity for the denials involved. If you are not fragmenting into your own children, or giving birth to fragments you have already created, you are still losing essence if you have denial involved in orgasm, and everyone does. This essence has to find a home and it will go to the magnetic energy that draws it in. This essence may go to a stranger who has a magnetic draw for what you are denying.

Rage has frequently done this, when it breaks loose, if guilt is not strongly present enough to keep it from moving.There is a particular kind of self-righteous rage, which has denied guilt, that often goes out this way to punish the ones it holds responsible for how it feels. This is a blaming rage that does not feel guilty at the time it is expressing the rage side of the cycle. Because this rage is going out in a denied state, it has no acceptance from the ones denying it. Rage of this sort is accompanied by an entire set of instructions in the form of judgments, but the one I want to mention right now is a judgment present in one form or another that says: "this rage is not really me; I'm somebody else when I rage like this." Many spiritual leaders have cautioned against allowing yourself to feel rage, but this gives it an even more serious denial than if you allow yourself to know you have it. Rage needs to gain acceptance with the ones who are really feeling it, and be healed there.

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to empower fragments around you. Many of these fragments could not even have children if they weren't receiving denied essence from the parental part of the spirit involved.

The Hippies had orgasm in the presence of denial, and the use of drugs, particularly when drugs were used to go past feelings that would have held them back when they were not drugged, often caused more fragmentation than if they had not used them. The Hippies had a generation of guilt for parents and the Hippies had a desire to throw off guilt and act out everthing their parents had not allowed in themselves and everything they themselves had not done in their earlier lives. The Hippies actually had essence their parents had denied which was actually their own essence returning to empower them to "try it one more time." The Hippies later got caught in many of the same guilts their parents had when their reactionary phase lost its steam. The children conceived during the reactionary phase of the Hippies have been reflecting the feelings the Hippies were denying.

Whether or not Hippies are the biological parents of these children, the offspring of their generation is growing up now as the New Wave, Punkers, and also the right-wing conservatives that have even gone into fundamentalism under the leadership of the guilt generation. The punkers and New wavers have the rage and undercurrent blame of the Hippies that is too guilty to move, but wants to make a statement, nonetheless. While the anger pretends it has no fear or guilt, the right wing has the denied fear which holds the guilt present. The breadth of the split in the manifested forms there reflects the split in the parental part of the spirits involved between their own rage and fear. This gap, or split, is filled in by guilt and blame that attacks both the self and others in recognizable phases.

You need to understand that your rage and fear must come together for the place of true power to be found. As long as there is imbalance here, power is imbalanced. The way to bring balance here is to allow yourself to feel fear and terror until the fear and terror breaks into anger and rage of its own accord. Let the grief that needs to suface here surface in an atmospere of acceptance also. It has something to say about your feelings toward power. If you have rage first, allow the same process in reverse. Rage until you feel fear and terror and allow the grief.

A word of caution is needed here. I do not regard it as wise to go forth and unleash these emotions on the ones that are triggering you unless you have full understanding of what you are

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doing, which you do not have yet. The role played by fragmentation is just being introduced to you, and there is much more that must be understood. I have also told you not to hold back emotion that gets triggered in you, and this is not wrong advice either. For the time being, you need to allow these emotions at home, or in a place that feels safe to you.

Here are a few more understandings on the examples I have just given. Not only were the Hippies, and those who sympathized with what they were trying to accomplish, the same people as the first generation I mentioned, but they had fragments that wanted to hold back and fragments that wanted to go ahead of them incarnating in the intervening generations. The amount of contact these fragments have retained with one another will determine whether the parental part of the spirit is able to recall and feel these lives of fragments, as though the parental spirit had lived them also. Hippies, and those who sympathized with them, are not unilaterally the parental parts of the spirits invoved, but they have a higher percentage of parental parts than do other generations I have mentioned. As long as the fear and rage is denied, judged against, and laden with guilt and blame, the parental part of the spirit always appears to be victimized by the fragments that want to hold it back and overshadowed by the fragments that want to rush ahead of it.

The parental part of the spirit is exhausted with this struggle and has the choice now of giving up and declaring guilt and the manifestation of their own denials the winner, or to understand how they have created this struggle for themselves, and take the necessary steps to heal it.

Most of the Hippies have realized that the forms they gave themselves during their youth were forms from their own reincarnational past when it was in its positive swing. Many hoped that invoking the power of these forms all at once would somehow invoke the power to prevail this time.

The strength of the denials here is immense and cannot be put aside this easily. Many who still want life only want it if they can have it without the reversals they have struggled with for so long. Many who took the spiritual path told themselves they just needed to do more work on their spirits and then they would find the happiness they sought. The paths most have taken have been fraught with the same misunderstandings the seekers already had. The paths fade (sic) the Will presence because their intent is to do this.

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Lucifer has control of these paths and , even if many are only misunderstanding rather than of evil intent, he is still able to gain tremendous power by using the denied Will essence the paths of discipline and denial hand to him. A common misunderstanding here is that denial and affirmation will increase power. You cannot get rid of something that is yours and expect to heal with missing parts.

I have been repeatedly mentioning Lucifer to many who want to tell Me that they don't believe in evil. Recognizing your own fundamentalist fragments will let you know that part of you lives in fear of the power of evil and the rest of you has rationalized this fear away, because another way to handle it was not known. You have to learn who your fragments are and how they fit into your life patterns to know how much denial you really have.

You need to understand denial in stages. It cannot all be taken in at once. Anything you have the ability to recognize as you study the reflection around you is something you have the ability to use now to further the healing, but you are going to have to learn to do more than just recognize it. If you have to get it wrong first in order to get it right, that is not wrong either. If it had not needed to happen, it would not have happened, but this does not mean it is beneficial to continue allowing it to happen once you begin to realize how to have some power in the situation. If you do not allow yourself to regain personal power over your destiny, Lucifer will take you to a place of complete personal powerlessness.

Lucifer loves making people feel they have no power over their destiny and that anything other than a Willess (sic) surrender is a travesty against God. If hatred can love anything, it loves the power to punish others. The surrender to whatever happens, that denies the personal Will, is Lucifer's supreme opportunity to punish others, because it brings death sooner or later to everytihng that gives up its Will in the mistaken belief that God requires this. This is a place of no self-love and I cannot help you there.

I appeared not to accept the Will at first, but this is not a full enough picture of Me to understand why I appeared to be this way.

There are some who want to say to Me that I have overstated this situation with the Will, and that they have intent to heal and that intent to heal is all they need. It is true that intent to heal

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makes the difference, but healing cannot manifest until you understand how to heal yourself. No one else can do it for you

God is not going to magically bring down Earth changes and heal everyone on Earth, thus ushering in the Golden Age. Nor do you enter into the Golden Age by just putting in your time, so to speak, until the Golden Age somehow appears. The Golden Age cannot be experienced by you unless you have the vibrational power with which to be present there. If you think the Golden Age is a state of mind, you have given it manifestation in only a part of yourself.

Many people were not ready to accept this information until they "gave it one more try" with the approaches they have tried in the past. You have done it now. You have gathered all the forms you thought would help, you have gathered all the spiritual power you could, you have used many techniques and many drugs that you thought would help you empower your lower levels of vibration. You have given speeches to your Lost Will, you have beseeched it, you have prayed for it, you have shined light upon it, you have tried to be a living example for it, you have gotten enraged at it and left it behind, you have denied it and affirmed yourself to be no longer troubled by it. You have tried everything you have known to try, including the rationalization that you no longer need to try because there is no place to go and nothing to do when you get there. You have said that Heaven is here and now, you have said that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. No matter what approach you have taken, you have died anyway, and even as you read this, you are aging. You must get the Lost Will to vibrate so that it can receive you.

If you do not want to go into oblivion, bit by bit, you are going to have to give in to Me now and realize that I have something to teach you that you do not already know. If you still want to insist that you already know it , you are going to go outside of Me and find out whether you know everything you think you know or not.

Earth has reversed Herself for the last time. Healing either comes now or Earth will be lost forever. I have not exaggerated the situation here, so do not dismiss Me and then later realize you're sorry you didn't listen to Me once again. There is something in the Will of spirits on Earth that has opposed Me for as long as they have had existence in Me. The opposition to Me has been caused by the same thing that has created the reversals in your own lives. The most recent reversals have been mellow com-

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pared to reversals in the past. T his is because it is time to heal now, but you also need to understand that fatigue has played more of a role here than you realize. If this period of laying back [sic] does not bring real resolution, there will be another skirmish between the spirits and their own denials that will end their existence as spirits.

On the other side, if I said there was nothing to worry about, you would have a feeling that that was not right either. Lost Will gives you the feelings of reversal so that you never get a fully positive or fully negative reading on anything. YOu are going to have to go through all of this essence and help it align with you so that you can go ahead without reversals.

If you think that reversals happen because you are not sure of yourself, You are not wrong, but you are going to have to understand why the lost Will feels as it does to know how to heal it. More needs to be done than just allowing the Will to blow off steam and then proceeding until the Will builds up its next charge. Guilt and death also play a role here that needs more understanding if you are going to heal the damage they have done. I am going to give you some understandings on death now that you have not already had.


SOME UNDERSTANDINGS ON DEATH

Originally, Lucifer told the spirits that death was nothing, and he was right; death is nothing. Lucifer then told the spirits they had nothing to fear. He sneered at the ones who feared, and many denied their fear in favor of looking brave in the eys of others.

"You have to overcome your fear of death," Lucifer told the spirits, and many took this in and have repeated it ever since.

Overcoming fear is important, but it cannot be done by denying it and then proceeding as though you do not have fear. Fragmenting your fear out into others does not mean that you do not have fear. If you have been dying physical deaths, you have Will essence that is holding feelings around this.

When a person dies, it happens because there is not enough vibrational movement left in the Will to enable the Spirit to stay present anymore. When there is no longer enough movement left for the Spirit to express itself, the Spirit has been taking the route of breaking off from the parts of the self that are no longer

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vibrating and leaving with what still has enough movement to be able to leave.

When this spirit reincarnates, it does so with less essence than it had in the past. Essence has been lost along the way and you are going to have to go back and get it now. The Spirit essence that has remained alive does not have the experience of death within itself, so death does not seem real to it.The Spirit has to go back and get the Will essence that has experienced being taken over by death and this is the essence I am speaking about now.

When Lucifer said that death is nothing, he shamed the Will into feeling that it was not right to feel as it did about death.

The Spirit is not magnetic, and so, to it, Lucifer did not seem wrong in what he said here. The Spirit has been easily able to let go of death and rise above it. Many Spirits think they have to reincarnate to teach others how to do this. They have not realized it is their own missing parts they have to help, nor have they wanted to realize that they cannot tell these parts to do as they have done.

The magnetic Will energy has quite a different experience with death than does the Spirit, and the Spirit is going to have to feel the Will here in order to know how to help it.

When Lucifer said that death was nothing, he observed it, but he did not feel it. It was not his intent to feel anything. He has hatred for the Will. He is Spirit that hates Will. He had nothing but hatred for how the Will felt when it touched death, and you are going to have to decide whether you want to go his way or not.

The Will cannot vibrate in the presence of nothing without feeling a pain so extreme that it does not want to vibrate anymore. This has caused the Will to stop vibrating wherever it has touched death, or nothing. Once a part of the Will stops vibrating, all other essence is affected and must either slow down or stop vibrating, depending upon how close it is to the problem. Essence in motion cannot go against essence that is not moving without having pain that makes it want to stop moving. Holding back does not allow the vibration necessary for life, and so, once a part of the Will stops vibrating, it is only a matter of time until the rest of the Will stops vibrating. Movement, such as emotional expression or orgasm, has , in the past, intensified the pain of the essence whose vibration is touching essence that can no longer move to open space to receive it.

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of itself to find out, because everywhere that Spirit goes, there is light. It is the Will that has the ability to go outside of the Spirit and experience absence of Spirit. When the Will receives nothing instead of light, the Will has to struggle in that environment until light comes into it. When the Will feels that it cannot move, light may even be poured upon it and the Will is unable to open and receive it.

The nature of the Will is expanding openess and if this is not filled with light, or even some limited form of light such as judgments, then the Will receives whatever lack of love is magnetically drawn in.

Once the Will took in nothing in part of itself, it closed around this nothingness in an effort not to expand into it or feel it anymore. The Will did not know that by doing this, it was going to kill itself little by little, because moving essence could not pound against something that was not moving without feeling a pain that would also make it stop moving. Over time, this nothingness held in the Will has become very deeply buried beneath many layers of Will essence that have stopped vibrating.

I have never been able to fill the motionless parts of the Will with light because the Will has not been able to allow Me to touch it here. The pain in the Will has been so great when it has tried to move that it has been unsure whether it was receiving Me or dying all over again. I want to clarify here that the experience of dying is not the same thing as death itself. Spirit did not understand the process the Will needed to clear itself of death, and so, did not accept the Will here. This has meant that the Will's attempts to clear death out were not given Light or love by the Spirit. This has conditioned the Will to feel that it cannot move death out the way it feels it needs to without receiving more denial.

Spirit has, for a long time, had guilt that it was a survivor and Will apparently was not. I also thought for a while that the Will was seeking death and avoiding Me because the Will seemed to be so resistant to My efforts to give light. I have now learned how light must be given to this part of the Will to enable it to move death out. It must be done in just the right way or it will not work.

When I have tried to heal the Will of this pain in the past, I have thought it would never be free of this pain or stop nagging Me about it. I have healed most of the Will in the past, but I have never gotten the Will to release the clench of death it has been holding ever since it took in nothingness. Because of this, the

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the Will is going to have to express the emotions that have been held in the essence that took in nothing when it wanted to receive Me. These emotions are terror, rage and an immense grief.

In the past, when the Will has tried to move death out, no one has had acceptance for the intensity of the emotion involved. Everyone, including Me, has tried to get as far away from the Will as possible when these emotions have come up. The fragments holding death have been shunned in the same manner. Guilt has made some people go toward this instead of away from it, but they have not gone with the love and understanding they think they have had, and so their presence has been helpful, but not healing.

Deconditioning the Will here is not an easy thing to do, but it must be done and it must be done lovingly. The Will cannot be ordered to stop fearing death and see that it is nothing because the Will has felt nothingness and knows the reality of it better than anyone who just looks at it ever could. This is why We must have both understanding and feeling to have life at all. I have objective understanding but without Will, there is no love. The Will has love to give in response to My Light and it is not wrong to assume that without Will presence, there is no love. Lucifer has personified the hatred that results from complete denial of the Will.


GLIMPSES INTO SOME OF THE UNDERSTANDINGS NEEDED NEXT

This book has been a preface of sorts for what I have to say next. The spirits who have to begin healing first are the ones that emerged first. If they don't start healing, there is no point in holding out hope for the rest, whose emergence story I have not yet given. All the rest of the spirits, whose emergence I have not yet given, are Will polarized spirits. They complement the Spirit polarized emergences of the Godhead. Having the properties of the Will, they are responsive and not originating.They have to get their information later, because they have to know that what they have to move is going to be accepted by the Spirit polarity. They have desire to heal and if they receive rejection from the Spirit polarity now, they are going to have to come into Me. I have room for them, but this is not their first choice because they have emerged to be what they are.

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them over the others. The Angels do not need to continue trying to prove that they can do everything on their own without My help so that they will not look favored. Neither do some of them need to punish themselves for being "favored" by handing themselves the short end of the stick to prove they can handle it as well or better than the Rainbow Spirits.

Don't forget that emotion has to move around everything that I am mentioning now. Even if you have to help yourself to begin to getting emotinal movement any way that you can, the emotion will not be fully cleared until it moves freely and on its own and in the time sequence it feels is right. Emotion is not to become a dictator here, but it has a right to its right place and it has a sensitivity that is needed now. {I noted: Most of all, it's Body's Will that has sensitivity] Appropriateness is a gift of emotion when it is not held back and loaded up with old charge.

The Rainbow Spirits need to understand that they have a lot of old charge; even more than the Angels have. They have to let it move and not hold back because of the guilt they have held for so long. The Rainbow Spirits have a fear of punishment because guilt has given it to them so many times, but there is no way anyone can escape punishment if guilt continues to be held. Self-acceptance will make the difference here. As you grow to understand guilt, you have to realize that the fear of not being right fed guilt a lot of essence which is empowering it now. Clearance of this fear will help the guilt presence to be reduced dramatically.

You have to accept that death is the way that guilt is going to go. Try not to let any of your essence go with it. Guilt has to find death because it is not really living. Guilt has to receive what it has given others, but the guilt itself will not notice what it has experienced. Guilt does not notice anything except movement, and lack of movement is what it seeks.

Guilt opposed Me from the very beginning because I wanted to move and seek to know Myself. Guilt opposed My vibration and the expansion of My light, and because guilt is unchanging here, it must now go outside of Me. This is right place for guilt because guilt has a long way to go before it can accept vibration of any kind. Because of this, there is no way to move guilt itself; instead, the space that guilt has occupied must be closed to it by the vibration of the Will.

I want to take this opportunity to show you an example of what I mean when I say that spirits have held images and judgments which they have thought were full understandings, but which were only partial understandings. What if you felt that

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move into. If you have a gap, then Spirit is not filling that space. Whatever the Will receives instead is what fills that space.

Everyone on Earth is seriously gapped from their Wills right now. To not be gapped, you must have total self-acceptance that allows total spontaneity. Any time gap between how you feel and when you express it or any lack of freedom in the expression indicates lack of self-acceptance . Guilt has a reflection to give on how much lack of self-acceptance there is. Going past guilt in the name of spontaneity will not heal you. Guilt is not something you can move past unless you know how. This means full understanding, which I cannot even give you now. So, work with what has been given, and know that when you reach your own limit, or I give you one, it is for a reason.

Pushing past limits in the name of overcoming fear has extracted a price of death that has nearly cost Us the Creation.The Lost Will has not been wrong to hold death and fear either. It is the nature of the Will to open, and it has to hold what it has been given until a way to change this is found. A way has been found now, but implementing it is not as easy as it may look.

When the Will is fully vibrating and the light of the Spirit is filling all the space the Will opens, there is no way for guilt to reverse you or hold you back until death sets in. When this is not the case, being held back or even reversed is the right thing. Spirit expanding without Will to focus it, guide it and let it know what it is doing is a death-creating event. There are plenty of examples of ungrounded expansionism on Earth right now to teach you what I mean here. Will expanding without Spirit to fill it is also death dealing since the Will has the power to manifest and will manifest whatever it receives. You have to understand that the arms race is an issue here that has to be solved through the healing of Lost Will, and yet, the Will is not to blame here.

I don't want to comment on this anymore right now, except to say that I have weariness with allowing Myself to be held back and I must get moving now. If you have looked away from Me for so long that you have lost movement in parts of yourself, you need to remember that looking away must be followed by looking back to Me again when you have readiness for more light. In this way, you can get the dosage of Me that you need without Me having to hold Myself back for you.

The presence of guilt caused Me to believe that i must hold Myself back until others could catch up. in doing this, I found that everything slows down and nothing catches up. This is a

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time frames at once, you will, as this healing goes on. Bringing all of yourself into the present is necessary, but it cannot be done by ditching the parts of yourself that have not been able to keep up. You have to go back now for the Lost Will that has lost the speed to keep up with the rest of you by first healing the Lost Will that is still vibrating, and then going after the essence that is no longer perceptibly vibrating.

I cannot give any more right now. If you are enraged that it is not enough, give in to the rage and consider it a blessing that rage is moving. Anything that helps you move rage is a blessing, because there is more Lost Will trapped in unmoving rage than anything else right now. You have to understand that rage has been given the heaviest denials and the most punishment of any of the emotions. When it comes out, be prepared for it to have pain and blame, grief, and even a desire to hurt others the way it has been hurt. This is natural, but do not allow it to hurt anyone else.

You have to understand that you also have gapped rage that has no light at all. Gapped rage has to be understood later, but for how, you need to know that when gapped rage comes out, you don't know what you have done during that time. This has the potential for dangerous situations and it is not to be allowed to move in the presence of others. Guilt for having it is not necessary, but gapped rage must be given light in stages so that it can heal. If you do not give yourself any more pressure to express emotion than feels right for healing, you will avoid triggering yourself into your gap. The gap has death in it and is not something to fool around with. You have to have readiness to heal it.

Now some of you are going to see this as a limit you are going to want to challenge. If you do go past this limit, you have to take responsibility for whatever happens. You cannot put the responsibility on this book or anyone else around you. If you are experiencing situations that feel like too much pressure, you must remove yourself from the situation and not blame others for having created it. If you have a place in you that cannot yet receive light, it is your responsibility to move back to a place that feels comfortable, rather than insisting that it is the light which must shut itself down.

Guilt has succeeded in having the light shut down for so long that most people cannot see how it could be otherwise. The light is central to this Creation and has no place to back into. If I com-

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Is it posible to live without having to go forth and experience the self?
Is it possible to have essence without form?
Is it possible to have Spirit without Will?
Is it possible to leave everything behind except for Spirit and Heart?

In summary, I would like to say that you have to feel guilt's presence. There is no way I could delineate guilt in all of its subtle forms. In general, I can say that guilt opposes the evolution of the light and there is movement involved in evolving the light. Evolutionary movement may mean slowing down at times and speeding up at other times. Guilt holds you back from doing what you want to do by saying that what you want to do is not the right thing to do. Guilt has been able to use all of your fear that you are not right to do what you want to do.

When the Will is fully accepted, there is no room for guilt. Guilt has been able to occupy the places where the Will was held back from free expression by the fear that it was not loving for the Will to express if it meant that another might not like what the Will had to give. The healing of this fear is what needs to take place now. Denying the guilt and then behaving as though you no longer have it will not work. I have seen the reversals that take place when guilt is denied, and you will experience one sooner or later if you are not really healing guilt.

I cannot delineate a fool-proof method to let you know if you are denying or not either. You are going to have to feel the presence of denial also. The Will is invaluable and needs to be recovered now. You cannot get along without it.

In the next book, you are going to see some orders of spirits emerge that intend to prove to Me that the Will is not necessary, and you will find that they are the Warriors. I have mentioned already. They have a lesson to give that needs to be understood now. They have intent to kill the Will and get rid of everything that reminds them of it. They have to go off Earth because Earth is the Will polarity planet of My Creation. They need to go before they kill the Earth or make it so hard for the Earth to heal that the Earth gives up Her desire to recover.

You need to understand that the Warriors have a huge presence of Lost Will with them that needs to be given a chance to recover before they go. In some way, this is a perilous race against a ticking time bomb, but getting going is the important first step. The Warriors have to go outside of Me and that is why I do not

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receiving yet what they have for so long wanted to receive from Me. The Will polarity has cried out for Me to speak to them and I will not leave them without Me now, but the Spirit polarity must get moving first because the Will polarity is responsive and the response they have to give cannot be given until the Spirit polarity makes room to receive it with love this time.

If you have rage, fear and grief over this, do not hold it back now. If you need to rage at Me for not speaking to you directly, do not hold it back now. If you need to throw the book down and declare that you're never going to read another line of it, allow yourself to do this. If you're afraid that either the book is crazy or you're going to go crazy trying to understand it, allow yourself to go into the terror that you have here. Many had terror that they could not understand Me and chose to turn away from Me, rather than risk being overwhelmed by a terror they believed they could not handle. You are going to have to move terror around what the next book has to say anyway. Please understand that terror can move and is not something that can be held anymore. If you have any ability to feel terror, allow yourself to feel as much as you can move at any one time, because terror is the most difficult emotion to move of your own volition. Usually something has to terrify you. At least let it be something of loving intent that terrifies you this time.

Terror has been identified as only possible in response to something that has a death to give you. This is not wrong, but old terror must move so that it can balance with rage. This balance is where you will find the strength to save your life.

Allowing terror to move means allowing light in to it and moving out the guilt that says you are wrong to be so terriified of death.The desire to seek life has to allow itself to move away from death. Anything literally frozen in terror cannot save its own life.

I have given all that I can give now. If you feel that I have left many things unclear or if you have an unsettled feeling, please allow movement here. I have a reason for everything I have done, including triggering the feeling that this book is either too much or not enough, or not clear enough to get you going. Rage is the bottom line here, along with the terror you hold that even in your rage, you are powerless to find a way to heal yourself.

There is hopelessness in the Lost Will, also, that does not believe healing can ever really come. If you feel this, allow it.

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not have a feeling of lack of self-acceptance on its own; it has to receive this feeling from the Spirit involved. You will understand this in time; I am not going to explain it now.

I intend to end now by giving you My blessing and saying unto you that I have love to give to all who have desire to seek love from Me and that healing intent is the reason why I am now speaking forth as I am. If you have intent to heal, you will find the loving presence within which you can heal. Opening to receive love is the gift that healing the Will brings to you. Love is the Will's response to receiving love. When you love all of yourself, the reflection around you will be all loving. When you accept all of yourself, the reflection will be all accepting.

            Selah

Rachel: Completion of the graphical edition of both books on July 4, 2012, 8:06, an hour before ....