I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
K.I.S.S. -
L O G 2
0 0 8
Keep It Simple Sweetheart
Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk
among each other,
and he listens and he
hears
yatakaalamuna allathina
yarau'na-hu ,
va-yusri va-yasma'
Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander,
und er lauscht und er
hoert
Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent
l'un a l'autre
il entends,
il ecoute
Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want,
then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what
may 7:30 I desire to assimilate the
2 main experiences on Shabbat (which was
free of actions&interactions):
the past: Sept. 13,1993, the writing of "Alt-Neu-Land 2003"
& the signing of the Oslo-Accords,
the future: Bernadette Tynan's Brain-Training to bring out the
over-looked talents in any child
I desire to again savor the togetherness with my close and my
larger family on Hagar's wedding.
I desire to enjoy the jumping between the last days & the
not yet completed pages from Aug.
18.
I desire, that Big Lior & Little Lior find the courage and
ingenuity to accomplish their tasks.
"Bernadette
Tinan empowers children by training their brain,
but she does not train their feelings and fears.
"fear is nothing, put it in the balloon & blow up the
balloon!"
"In order to help her I taught her brain to overcome fears"
hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
8:00 My Body,
my Partner,
my God
I give thanks to the bone of our bones, its organic substance:
the flexible collagen and its inorganic substance calcium
phosphate,
to its cells, its blood-vessels, its nerves and pain receptors.
How light it is and still how strong! "In
tensile strength(resistance
of a material to being torn apart; maximum stretching force)
it is like cast iron, although around 1/3 of the weight,
in bending stress it behaves like steel, although only half
as strong."
The biggest bone, the thigh, can temporarily handle up to
2 tons I am grate-full that I'm getting better
at setting boundaries and balancing
the inundation of information, the deluge of memories, the
flood of people.
As to what I did allow to come into my life yesterday:
I'm grate-full for having learnt the lessons - for myself
and for humankind-
from my superhuman efforts and self-torture in 1993, as before
and after...
I'm grate-full for the mirror held out to me by brain-trainer
Bernadette Tynan,
her ardent desire to empower people, as her denial of the
reality of fears.
I'm grate-full to Big Lior and Little Lior for attracting
me into their lives
and letting me practice how to coach "you" towards
whole empowerment:
so you will neither succumb to your fears, nor override your
fears,
but walk with them - slowly - , like with a limping friend
on a hike,
putting your arm under his armpit and his arm around your
shoulder.
"It's not true that you can't teach
an old dog a new trick.
You can train your brain at any age" Bernadette
Tynan Continuation of the gallery of accidental
photos of the screen - mostly during the episode of Aisha.
They are ordered from right to left, according to the direction of
the Hebrew subtitles.
By the way, when Bernadette Tynan let Aisha write some words in Arabic,
she gave important info
about how the two parts of the brain are connected (?)
when two languages are written, one from the left and one from the
right. [October 6: I had intended to
translate the Hebrew subtitles back into English, but it would take
too much time...]
While Aisha, 11 years old, organizes everything
for her cultural festival at Manchester,
her mother (with the name fitting a Palestinian lover : Judith.....)
is very worried
The Festival
Nourishment from Others -
via e-mail
From an e-mail from Stacey Robyn and the ground crew of Go
Gratitude!
....As a civilization, we are daily
creating new pinnacles of possibility,
taking stock of what is working, and returning the rest to
Love.
Old models of domination and aggression
are giving way to Unity and Compassion.
For all it's gifts and service, the technocratic world is
a double-edged sword, providing both
connection, information
and ease of delivery (We are great-full to use it everyday!)
... while also distracting us from the present, to play in
illusory worlds
and so become lazy in our ability to maintain a single point
of focus,
and follow through on our commitment to Love.
...Gratitude is a waking meditation
... a state of being
that allows us to experience a single point of focus
as EVERYTHING, to be All That IS ~~~
and flow centered in the Great-FULL-ness of Life...
.. the heart's magnetic field is 5000
times stronger
than the brain's magnetic field.
So as we choose to Go Gratitude, to live this state of waking
meditation,
we begin to 'Think with the Heart, and Love with the Mind'.
We create from the center of our being,
and every breath becomes a prayer of Gratitude. WOW!
Now, in the beginning, as with any discipline,
we are rarely able to sustain, or shift quickly, into a state
of Gratitude.
The ego mind habitually steps in to bring us back to "reality"
~~~ focusing on the things that could/would/should BE,
instantly taking us out of the moment, out of center,
spiraling the mind into an illusory
state of dis-satisfaction,
where the ego can then "fix the problem."
With intent and discipline, this radically changes.
Let me share an example:
Recently my sister, Katherine, paid me a
sincere, deeply touching compliment.
She shared that watching me in-vision, co-create and steward
Go Gratitude
had dissolved some illusory beliefs of a gap
existing between her and other teachers/prominent figures/Masters
ie. "successful people."
In watching my human-ness, growth spurts
and ummm -| authentic ignorance -
Katherine realized she'd put these folks on a pedestal - imagining
THEY were perfect, enjoying the life of their dreams, totally
enlightened
and waaaaay BEYOND her present state of evolution.
She realized we are all human, we wake every
day
and face what the Spirit of Creation brings our way. [No! not "the Spirit of Creation",
but our own staging of our dramas!]
The difference is how we choose to use what we are given.
So ~~~ as Katherine's sharing this insight,
gushing with Gratitude for my role in dissolving a dis-empowering
illusion,
my ego is going, "Oh, I see
... you love me because I'm not perfect???
and it makes you feel better about yourself???"
Or something like this ...
It was more of a feeling, a deeply embedded
anti-bliss mechanism
that was attempting to sabotage the moment and find something
wrong with it. EGO.
[What is called "EGO" here,
I call "the belief in my need to be righteous!"]
.... Appreciation for the perfection
of imperfection. Thankfully, as the discipline to Go
Gratitude! has become (almost) first nature,
I breathed deeply to enter center and listened with my heart.
What I felt was a wave of Love shifting my being from ego
to essence.
I felt safe, honored, nurtured ... and inspired.
... Inspired to discover my learning curve was of benefit
to another.
Inspired as I perceived this gift
to be a chance to re-write old patterns of self-loathing,
judgment and perfectionism ... and be great-full for all that
IS!
......
... after launching the Experiment, I found myself gripped
with fear. Fear of being found un-grateful.
Fear of forgetting to live what I was teaching. Fear that others might believe I AM
- uugggh - a fake.
Now, you've heard the phrase "Fake it
till you make it", right?
In reality, to experience the profound blessings of choosing
to Go Gratitude,
there is no faking it.
"Faking it" is a form of resistance - physically,
mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
What we resist persists,.
... as we choose to stand in our authentic
power,
we align with the Higher Self, gaining access to insight,
discernment, and compassion.
...So how do we stand in our authentic power?
We live our truth - with compassion [TOWARDS
OURSELVES!]. We let go -
and grow with Gratitude.
... We Faith it till we make it.
========================================== "Faith is born of gratitude.
The grateful mind continually expects good things,
and expectations become faith" ~Wallace Wattles
==========================================
... as we ... focus
our hearts upon those things we are great-full for,
that which brings us joy and mirrors truth,
we shift from ego to essence and resurrect our Selves.
P.S. Experience a vision of a world
dreaming awake
and join with us, as One Heart United, to declare this day,
"I CHOOSE LOVE", initiated by Shawn Gallaway.
Thank you, Shawn, for shining your Light
and sharing your heartwork with the world!
[I watched Shawn Gallaway's video : I
choose love. Sometimes I felt whole with the contrasting
images
but sometimes I felt disgusted (Jesus-Heart and Hitler...), and altogether I feel grieved,
that "choosing love" means - for all those "good"
people -
to not take responsibility,
to not be parental
to all the phenomena of non-love...
Angekommen sind wir in der Weimarer Republik
in den 20er Jahren des vorigen Jahrhunderts.
Der Autor, den ich Ihnen heute vorstellen will, heißt
Alfred Henschke.
Er ist in Crossen an der Oder 1890 geboren.
Und als er sechzehn war, stellte man bei ihm eine Lungentuberkulose
fest,
was damals ohne Penicillin einem Todesurteil gleichkam.
Zwei Jahre danach beginnt Alfred Henschkes Dichterleben,
das 20 Jahre dauerte bis zu seinem Tod 1928. Während dieses Dichterlebens nannte er sich Klabund,
eine Verbindung aus Klabautermann und Vagabund. Die Harfenjule
von Klabund
Emsig dreht sich meine Spule,
Immer zur Musik bereit,
Denn ich bin die Harfenjule
Schon seit meiner Kinderzeit.
Niemand schlägt wie ich die Saiten,
Niemand hat wie ich Gewalt.
Selbst die wilden Tiere schreiten
Sanft wie Lämmer durch den Wald.
Und ich schlage meine Harfe,
Wo und wie es immer sei,
Zum Familienbedarfe,
Kindstauf oder Rauferei.
Reich mir einer eine Halbe
Oder einen Groschen nur,
Als des Sommers letzte Schwalbe
Schwebe ich durch die Natur.
Und so dreht sich meine Spule,
Tief vom Innersten bewegt,
Bis die alte Harfenjule
Einst im Himmel Harfe schlägt.
70 Bücher hat Klabund in diesen zwanzig Jahren zu Wege
gebracht,
d.h. alle drei, vier Monate ein Buch. 25 Dramen, 14 Romane,
21 Gedichtbände, dazu noch Erzählungen und Nachdichtungen
meist chinesischer Lyrik.
Ein Wettlauf mit dem Tod.
Ein Wettlauf auch durch meist südliche Sanatorien.
Sanatorium Auf der Veranda. Neben mir zwei Huren
Aus der Gesellschaft, syphilitisch eitel.
Sie streicheln zärtlich meinen Schuppenscheitel
Und sprechen von Chinin und Liegekuren.
In ihren grauverhängten Blicken duck ich,
Ein Morphiumteufel ihrer Liebesmasche.
Ich hüstle, huste, und zuweilen spuck ich
Den gelben Auswurf in die blaue Flasche.
In einem Sanatorium lernte Klabund auch seine erste Frau kennen,
die aber schon nach kurzer Ehe bei der Geburt des ersten Kindes
starb.
Ich sehs an deinem Bilde, auch du
leidest,
So himmelweit von mir entfernt zu sein.
Ich fühl, wie du die Engelspiele meidest
Und wie du traurig bist, besternt zu sein.
Ich bin nur deines Schattens schmaler Schatten.
Du bist so hell. Ich bin so dunkel ganz.
O wirf den goldnen Käscher nach dem Gatten
Und zieh hinüber ihn in deinen Glanz!
Klabund schreibt: »Mit dem Kinde habe ich sie getötet.
Meine höchste Seligkeit wurde meine tiefste Schuld.«
Selber tot sein möchte er:
Am Luganer See Durchs Fenster strömt der See zu mir herein,
Der Himmel auch mit seinem Mondenschein.
Die Wogen ziehen über mir dahin,
Ich träume, dass ich längst gestorben bin.
Ich liege auf dem Grunde alles Seins
Und bin mit Kiesel, Hecht und Muschel eins.
1911 begann Klabund in München Pharmazie zu studieren
und in diesem Zusammenhang
lernte er 1917 den acht Jahre jüngeren Bertolt Brecht
kennen,
der dort in Medizin immatrikuliert war.
Beide studierten nur sehr vage und widmeten sich ihren Dichtungen.
Sie traten zusammen auf, sangen ihre Gedichte zur Gitarre.
Auch in Kathi Kobus Simpl, wo Ringelnatz Hausdichter war.
Manchmal gesellte sich Karl Valentin oder Frank Wedekind dazu,
manchmal die Schauspielerin Carola Neher,
die Klabunds zweite Frau werden sollte,
und die in Brechts Dreigroschenoper die Polly sang,
und für die er das Gedicht Kukuli schrieb.
Kleiner Vogel Kukuli, Flieh den grauen Norden, flieh,
Flieg nach Indien, nach Ägypten
Über Gräber, über Krypten,
Über Länder, über Meere,
Kleiner Vogel, lass die schwere
Erde unter dir und wiege
Dich im Himmelsäther - fliege
Zwischen Monden, zwischen Sternen
Bis zum Sonnenthron, dem fernen,
Flieg zum Flammengott der Schmerzen
Und verbrenn in seinem Herzen.
Carola Neher floh 1933, fünf Jahre nach Klabunds Tod
vor den Nazis in die UDSSR,
wo sie als so genannte Agentin von Stalins Schergen
zu zehn Jahren Lagerhaft in Sibirien verurteilt wurde
und wo sich ihre Spur im Dunkel verliert.
Klabund wurde in Crossen in seiner Geburtsstadt begraben.
Gottfried Benn hielt die Totenrede
und nannte ihn einen »sich selbst verzehrenden, genialischen
Künstler.«
Doch vielleicht noch mal zurück zum Anfang.
Zur Harfenjule, einem Gedichtbändchen,
das Klabund 1927, kurz vor seinem Tod zusammengestellt hat.
Kurt Tucholsky hatte darin ein Lieblingsgedicht.
Es trägt den Titel: Bürgerliches Weihnachtsidyll
und Tucholsky schreibt darüber: »Klabund hat es mir einmal leise
am Klavier vorgesungen
- er hatte es in sein Notizbuch gekritzelt
und da saß er so still und bräunlich am Klavier,
er hätte ruhig zum Schluss mit dem Hut einsammeln gehen
können.«
Bürgerliches Weihnachtsidyll Was bringt der Weihnachtsmann Emilien?
Ein Strauß von Rosmarin und Lilien.
Sie geht so fleißig auf den Strich. O Tochter Zions, freue dich!
Doch sieh, was wird sie bleich wie Flieder? Vom Himmel hoch, da kommt sie nieder.
Die Mutter wandelt wie im Traum. O Tannenbaum! O Tannenbaum!
O Kind, was hast du da gemacht? Stille Nacht, heilige Nacht.
Leis hat sie ihr ins Ohr gesungen:
Mama, es ist ein Reis entsprungen:
Papa haut ihr die Fresse breit.
O du selige Weihnachtszeit!
Vielleicht noch eine kleine makabre Geschichte.
Kurz vor Ende des Krieges saß Karl-Heinz Stroux,
der spätere Intendant des Düsseldorfer Schauspielhauses
und damals noch Regieassistent von Gustav Gründgens,
der unter den Nazis Intendant des Schauspielhauses in Berlin
war,
mit Kollegen in einer Berliner Kneipe und sie sprachen über
Carola Neher.
Da drehte eine altgewordene Hure sich um und sagte zur Verblüffung
aller: »Ick besitze det allet
von die Neher.«
Stroux ging gleich zu ihr nach Hause und sah,
dass sich dort in einer großen
Kiste nicht nur Nehers, sondern auch Klabunds Nachlass befand.
Er versprach wieder zu kommen. Was er auch tat,
denn er sollte im Auftrag von Gustav Gründgens diesen
Nachlass kaufen.
Doch als er am nächsten Tag vor der Tür stand, war das Haus und der Nachlass nur noch Schutt und
Asche.
Der Bombenangriff der letzten Nacht hatte alles zerstört.
(aus der SF-Gesprächsreihe "Sternstunde
Philosophie")
In den Diskussionen über die Krise der Familie und den
Mut zur Erziehung ortet der in St. Gallen lehrende Philosoph
Dieter Thomä das Ergebnis einer jahrhundertealten Verunsicherung
der Väter und ihrer Rolle. Der Vater als Patriarch hat
ausgedient, doch wer tritt an seine Stelle? Trifft das Schlagwort
von der "vaterlosen Gesellschaft" überhaupt
zu?
In "Sternstunde Philosophie" erläutern die
Psychologin Pasqualina Perrig-Chiello und der Philosoph Dieter
Thomä, warum Väter besser sind als ihr Ruf.
Finetuning
to my Present
my talks with Rotem and Hadass were fabulous,
also with Efrat, Rafi's mother, and with Rafi and Hagar about
my gift.
But "there is no time" to sculpt what we communicated...
Renin in the
"Confession Room" again spilled out her pain of
deep loneliness
after another Jewish Kiddush
on the Jewish Shabbat-Eve,
and this after Miki had once started to sing the "Ha-Tikva"
with "the soul of a Jew".: "I have no Jewish soul",
cried Renin,"I think, I'll leave
the Big Brother tomorrow."
What was soothing, was the way, Shai succeeded in comforting
and hugging her,
though it was him, who unlike the others didn't want to wait
for her to start eating. "I don't care about Kiddush. At
home I eat puree with milk and shnitzels,
I only care about us sitting and being together."
Just as soothing was the following scene:
Big Brother announced that Shifra would be the one to be granted
the priviledge
of the posh , almost private "suite" for 12 hours.
Shifra wanted to give it to Renin, "since
it's her birthday tomorrow",
but before she ended her sentence, Big Brother said: "You are allowed to take someone
with you".
And so it was clear, that Renin was the one.
Though I suspect, that Big Brother's motive for choosing Shifra
was,
that she had confessed to have had a Lesbian relationship,
and having discerned,
that Shifra and Renin, the 2 wise women, had much in common,
probably calculated, that "something may happen"
between the two,
I was still happy, that I could watch Shifra&Renin in
ecstasis about their "suite".
Continuation
of Hagar's and Rafael's Wedding Encounter with the expanded family:
the descendants of the three Hahn-sisters: Edith (my
mother-in-law), Gertrud and Ilse the yellow names
signify people whom I met at the wedding of Hagar, the daughter
of my stepdaughter Dita
Hermann Salomon ~Johanna
Salomon Hahn~Rosali
Their daughter Elise Salomon married Rudolf
Hahn
They had 3 daughters
Edith
Hahn ~ Franz Rosenzweig Their son Rafael, 1922-2001, married
twice
Rafael
Rosenzweig ~ Ines their children: Joel,
Dita Ines later
married Heinz one of his 3 children marriedAdina who approached me at the wedding
Rafael
Rosenzweig
~ Christa-Rachel our children: Immanuel, Ronnit, Micha
Gertrud
Hahn~Siegried Jordan [in
Israel: Yarden]
Their two children:
Hanna
~ Otto Berka
Uri Nomi
Arie
Yarden~ Tzippora
Shlomit
Tamar
Ilse
Hahn - Otto Strauss
Their second son (the first died) Eliyahu Strauss
~ Hanna
Uri
Yael
Edna
Rafael Rosenzweig's descendants
I n e s
Dita &Gideon
Orit
(&Ofer, Udi, Itai)
Hagar (&Rafi)
I
n e s
Joel &Tova
Ran (&Shir)
Hadass
Asaf
C h r i s t a - R a c h e l
Immanuel& Ruth
Elah 1987
Alon 1991
Tomer1994
Immanuel & Efrat
Mika -2005
C
h r i s t a - R a c h e l
Sister Ronnit&Uri
Jonathan 1991
Rotem 1993
Yael 1996
Itamar 1998
C h r i s t a - R a c h e l
Micha&Ra'ayah
Arnon 1996
Ayelet 1998
Immanuel, my eldest son, Dita's step-brother,
dances
with Mika, my youngest grandchild
Rotem wants to hide, but when she sees, that Tomer,
who usually also hides, makes a joke of it, she coopererates
Tomer with Lior - this time it is a man who
bears this name "Li-Or", to
me is light.
Lior was introduced to me as Elah's boyfriend. Tomer likes him a lot,
it seems.
While Lior puts his hands on Tomer's shoulders, Rotem lets Mika take
her hand.
Tomer was not aware of me taking his beautiful
profile
A woman framed by two brothers, Joel and
Immanuel.
It is Inneke, Dita's Dutch cousin and her age.
I looked for the photo I remember of the young girl -
on a trip with Rafael 30 years ago - but I can't find it in
my computer-folders
better perspectives of Alon
Micha's wrist in plaster..
About what are they worried?
Hagar with Immanuel
Ra'ayah, Micha and Ayelet
Dita now is the only one who seems worried
Elah and her new boyfriend Lior
As to more
images of Hagar's and Rafael's Wedding
- see on September 15