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Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.
- as stated 12 years ago - was and is
to help me and my potential P E E R s
"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,
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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
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"to
feel better requires that you become better at feeling"
June 27/ Sivan 24, Friday, still 49 days -
at Shoham
Parting from my obsession to complete
this page--- on June 29
back to past ~~~~~
forward to future
The FOCUS of MY INTENTION
TODAY
Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want,
then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what
may!
8:50
Having
realized - with grate-full-ness - how my desire concerning a
small problem manifested,
[see
the closure of the Gallery about the encounter with Rotem, Yael,
Arnon on Grandma-Day with the Six]
I now dare to desire to manifest -
through heart-felt, God-felt INTENTION and
less through words&acts
the "New Heart - New Spirit"
, promised by Ezekiel and Godchannel alike,
in my drama with Tomer
I desire to vibrate my fear and powerlessness towards him as
towards all "such" children today
I desire to give this intention of manifesting New Heart in
co-creation with Tomer first priority!
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3000
years ago King David expressed the yearning of all Wo/Men
"A pure heart create for me, God, and
a right spirit renew inside me!"
Psalm
51:12
And yet
it's not purity what the heart needs, but unity, being whole
in itself,
and this is what 400 years later prophesied Ezekiel in Israel's
exile:
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hodayot [thanksgivings] for
today
13:30
My Body, my Partner,
my God
I give thanks to our tears for healing our feeling
I give thanks to our
brain for "making sense, for creating, for growing".
I am grate-full for having been led
to reinforce my Intention
by savoring Ezekiel's
prophecies- which have Accompanied me all my life -
and sculpting them into a composition which will serve my
daily intending:
"I gave you ONE Heart and a NEW SPIRIT
I'll give within you
and I'll remove the heart of stone from their flesh
and will give them A HEART OF FLESH. "
Ez. 11:19
The second version is a command: You do this yourself!:
"Make yourself a NEW HEART and a NEW
SPIRIT!" Ez.
18:31
The third version puts the emphasis
on "new"
, leaving out the "one",
but stresses again, that it will be a Heart
of Flesh, a heart in body!
This time the promise is entirely to "you", not
"to you" and "to them".
"I'll give you a NEW HEART
and a NEW SPIRIT I'll give within you,
and I'll remove the heart of stone from
your flesh
and will give you A HEART OF FLESH. "
Ez.
36:26
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A single orange-yellow heart leaf on an otherwise
green tree: this is what we discovered today, Mika and I!
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(Les
Choristes), "the
Chorus", Die
Kinder des Monsieur Mathieu ,
"Ne'arim Sharim" (in Hebrew)
"The Chorus is a 2004 French drama film directed by
Christophe Barratier. Co-written by Barratier and Philippe Lopes-Curval,
it is a remake of the 1945 film
A Cage of Nightingales (La Cage aux Rossignols),
The film explores the pain of a child's separation from his
parents
and the transcendence of music as the greatest form of expression."
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| Vois
sur ton chemin
Gamins oubliés égarés
Donne leur la main
Pour les mener
Vers d'autres lendemains
Sens au coeur de la nuit
L'onde d'espoir
Ardeur de la vie
Sentier de gloire
Bonheurs enfantins
Trop vite oubliés effacés
Une lumière dorée brille
sans fin
Tout au bout du chemin
Sens au coeur de la nuit
L'onde d'espoir
Ardeur de la vie
Sentier de la gloire |
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See
upon your path
Kids lost and forgotten
Take their hands
To lead them
Toward other tomorrows
Feel in the heart of the night
The wave of hope
Ardor of life
Pathway of glory
Joys of childhood
Too quickly forgotten, erased
A golden light shines steadily
at the end of the road |
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Video
with music and images, which again bring tears to my eyes
Video:
Les Choristes: "Vois sur ton Chemin". : fantastic clips
in French
The
song "Vois sur ton Chemin", performed in some Palais
de Congres
Beyonce
"Vois sur ton Chemin", by a woman
soloist
Video: La Nuit
Les
Choristes Website
Les
Choristes - another selection of clips in French
Le Fond d'Etang = Bne Arazim [see
June 29] ???
"Set in 1948, a professor of music, Clement
Mathieu, becomes the supervisor
at a boarding school for the rehabilitation for minors.
What he discovers disconcerts him -- the current situation is repressive.
Through the power of song, Clement tries to transform the students"
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Driving
Backward
Hebrew-English Diary 2007, on May 13
"we finally saw the DVD Efrat had borrowed from her boss
for a few days:
Les Choristes ("na'arim sharim")
and when talking about it later I said,
that I was reminded of both Tomer and Levi..... So now there is this additional fright concerning
the TOMER IS COMING FANTASY
[explain :
how is the whole initiative connected to the slogan
….
it is the time to also let go of every detail
in all the
four pathes of GRATeFULLness,
with joy and GRATeFULLness in this very moment,
never mind if the creation will remain uncompleted
and the memories forgotten and deleted.
It seems , that this is the last lesson
i have to learn,
and the last healing I have to do about my personal past,
before I'm mature for the Voyage with TOMER.
The lesson is a lekh-lekha
of a new kind:
lekh-lekha of a pattern, the old pattern of wanting to be perfect
Maybe the third lekh-lekha, about which I taught Yael
[who had come to me the
day before in order to ask me questions
concerning her presentation at school about "One who fulfilled
her dreams"]
the lekh-lekha from my childrens' home at Ramat-Gan to the
bus
(starting with the advice of my
sister Ursel (when she brought our mother to me, 1983):
"you can do realize
your desire to walk in Abraham's footsteps in a caravan"!
towards being truly mobile with the bus in May 1986)
was easy compared to this lekh-lekha,
but if I succeeded in letting go of the pattern "I must
cook creatively" (in 1976?)
and even of the pattern "I must cook for family and guests",
altogether (in 2001)
then I may succeed in letting go of the pattern
"my creations in writing and documenting" must be
complete.
So right now, I shall not document the experience
with Yael
and not the experience with sitting with Ronnit for half an
hour in the same room,
[2008_06_27- how come that despite
this statement I rightaway wrote a few lines...]
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Finetuning
to my Present
:
"Don't
say anything, don't exemplify,
only listen and console!"
How should I console?
Perhaps only by listening and a cautious stroking,
and perhaps through a word that will a guide a person
to Giving Thanks,
to Self-Acceptance.
And what about Me?
"Every time you become aware
of your pattern of perfection,
give thanks to your spirit for reminding you,
that this is a pattern"
Those last Hebrew lines in my sculpted diary of May 13, 2007,
ignited an understanding in me on this very day
Couldn't this be the way of responding – not reacting
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to something that T. does?
Not to blame him,
not to show how I'm hurt by his betrayal,
but to point out, that his and my looking at his "deed"
has advanced his awareness,
and therefore has advanced him
towards healing and self-determination?
And instead of blaming – I could say:
"I'm so sorry, that now again you cannot love yourself."
But though this would be true,
and not meant as a manipulation and hidden blame,
it would be a negative input.
At least, there has to be a second part to the sentence:
"you'll learn that the most important thing for you
is to do things which will cause you to love yourself,
I understand, that by trying out one thing after the other
which causes you to hate yourself,
you'll finally reach the understanding
what it is that will cause you to love yourself.
So far only a few humans have discovered this,
because most humans are not even aware that this is what they
should want!
they believe that if they go by the laws
and conventions in society and family-friends interactions,
they will love themselves.
But this
"if I'm a good boy , you'll love
me, and if you love me, I'll love myself",
works only to a certain degree.
For your essence knows, that in order to become what you are,
you often have to do, what will not bring you esteem and love
from others.
To learn not to be dependent on others being pleased with
you
is your first step into the direction towards self-love.
And the more pain you cause yourself
by going against the way of pleasing and appeasing others,
the sooner you'll pause and ask yourself:
what is it, that will make me feel full-filled, excited ?"
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On
May 12, 2007
I find this entry in the template
of my diary:
"DVD with Efrat:
Les Choristes,
wonderful music,
sad and still too idyllic.
Underneath a photo of Tomer.
On the following day,
May 13, 2007,
it's again Tomer's picture
but this time - right underneath -
the picture of the main choirboy
from among the "truculent"
(a word I never heard
before)
60 boys in that
"re-education institution".
This year
the focus of my perception
is the institution
and its director and staff.
It's called
"Le Fond de l'Etang"
"The bottom of the swamp",
while the institution
planned for Tomer
is called
"Bnei-Arazim"
"The Sons of the Cedars"
Is there a message?????
Is the fact,
that on the day,
when the "transference" of T.
to Bnei-Arazim
was finally relevant
(after the Court's decision on
May 22),
the director went on leave
for 2 weeks?
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Kinder des Monsieur Mathieu :
Frankreich 1949:
Clément Mathieu, ein arbeitsloser Musiker, tritt seinen
Dienst als Hilfslehrer im Internat von Fond-de-l'Étang
an. Mit den schwer erziehbaren Kindern führt der Schuldirektor
ein strenges Regiment. Dem Neuankömmling erscheint diese
Art der Pädagogik völlig unangebracht, und so bietet
Mathieu den brutalen Erziehungsmethoden des Direktors bald Paroli.
Er nimmt den Schülern ihre Angst vor der Autorität
und weckt in ihnen die Freude an der Musik. Mit der Gründung
eines Chors bewirkt er eine nicht für möglich gehaltene
Wandlung der rebellischen Jugendlichen. Bei dem schüchternen
Pierre stellt er dabei ein außergewöhnliches Gesangstalent
fest. Als der Direktor nach dem Diebstahl einer großen
Geldsumme einen Schützling der Schule verweist und durch
eine Kollektivstrafe jegliche Freizeitaktivität unterbindet,
droht der Prozess der Veränderung zu scheitern. Aber der
Besuch einer Wohltäterin der Schule beschert dem Knabenchor
einen phänomenalen Erfolg, in dem sich auch der despotische
Direktor gern sonnt. Als der ehemalige Schüler jedoch im
Internat ein Feuer legt, sucht der Schulleiter nach einem Bauernopfer:
Seine Wahl fällt auf Mathieu.
"Die Kinder des Monsieur Mathieu" ist das Remake des
französischen Kinoklassikers "Der Nachtigallenkäfig"
(1945) von Jean Dréville. Unverkennbar spricht sich der
Film für ein menschliches, gerechtes Miteinander aus, das
die Untergebenen und Schwächeren nicht zu Opfern von Willkür
und Karrieredenken degradiert. In Frankreich wurde "Die
Kinder des Monsieur Mathieu" mit mehr als sieben Millionen
verkauften Eintrittskarten zum Kassenschlager. Christophe Barratier
sagt zu seinem Film: "Die Rolle der Musik ist vielleicht
idealisiert, jedoch nicht utopisch. Ich sage nicht, Musik verfeinert
die Sitten. Wenn man Kriminellen acht Stunden am Tag Mozart
vorspielt, ändert das nichts. Ich sage nur, im Leben ist
nichts verloren."
Critical response
In her review in the New York Times, Manohla Dargis called the
film "a deeply conventional story about truculent or orphaned
boys and the gentle soul who finds himself by shaping the tots
into a chorus. ..."
In the San Francisco Chronicle, Walter Addiego described the
film as "a nicely made exercise in pathos" and added,
"It's decently performed and directed, and features a young
actor with an impressive set of pipes - he does all his own
singing here - but the film is finally a letdown. It
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2007_05_13-Right underneath the picture
of Tomer:
2007_05_13,
9:48 I'm trembling with concentration
and tension'
there is the TOMER IS COMING FANTASY in the background
no! in the foreground
and it puts everything I try to do in a new perspective
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I
kept myself awake until 1 AM this morning,
in order to see a movie in 3 SAT, which I had seen before,
and which seemed to be of the highest relevance at present
(Tomer's impendent move into his father's family).
It was only this morning when I told Efrat, why I was tired,
that she reminded me, when and how we had seen this movie together,
not on TV, but via a DVD, which her boss at her new job had
lent her.
A coincidence?
My fright, my son's fright, leave alone Efrat's panic
amplified by the situation depicted in the movie,
a situation which has not improved since 1949, but worsened.
It is not only Tomer as our personal actor in each of our personal
dramas!
When I saw those boys - especially the "worst" among
them -
I shuddered with fear and sobbed with compassion
and - mainly - felt myself going numb with powerlessness.
"I still haven't learnt a thing about
"How to Cope with Evil",
I simply cannot cope with it.
It's not the only movie about a teacher who is successful with
"such" boys.
And I - after my experiment and total failure with 10 little
"such boys" in 1982-
admire these teachers beyond any expression.
But the point is, that I have created "such" an actor
in my drama,
a son of my eldest son, Tomer, my grandson and - my
foster grandchild..
And even this is not yet the real point.
"Tomer" is representing an aspect of humankind,
which comes more and more into the foreground.
I know of many reasons, why I created Tomer in my drama,
the history of myself, my marriage, my son's childhood, my son's
choice of a spouse,
my crazy creations and life-styles through so many year, and
much more,
it all came to bear on the very "set-up" of Tomer.
There is much to heal,
and many of his triggers
come to point out holes in my and my son's wholeness,
that now want to be healed.
But that is not all.
The true reason for "Tomer" in my drama,
is, as I shall say again and again,
that he represents humankind,
and all my work on "healing
myself into wholeness - and by extension - all of Creation",
will be deficient and lacking, if I would escape "my destiny"
with Tomer.
Strange - I haven't used this term - destiny - for a long, long
time....
If I still should attract behavior,
to which there is attached "Luciferian",
"Ahrimanic" or "Assuric"
essence,
then I shall know, that I still have a long way to become "New
Heart".
I shall not judge or blame myself then,
but neither shall I project my own holes on Tomer or on anybody
else.
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song
of the day
And I shall be joyous about
them and do good to them,
I shall plant them truly in this land
with my whole heart and with my whole soul..
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Flashback
to Tomer's flight with Abba to Los-Angeles, end of May 2008,
and their togetherness during an entire week |
Is he imprisoned in a cave or a bird among
the birds/
Self-Portraits of Father and Son
Self-Portraits of Tomer alone.
Even when he was 8 years old, he enjoyed
taking pictures of himself with my camera,
trying out all kinds of faces...- see, for instance,
the entry to the Tomer library Nov. 2002-April 2003
What does Tomer see in his face, in his eyes,
in his greatest pride - those boots?
And how does he see his father, whom he photographed
only once amidst all his self-portraiting?
I want to close this page with one single photo
of our outing today:
As promised yesterday: we came back to the
Garden of Vines, Pomegranates, Figs and Olives,
but this time with bought grapes in this double box - too sour for
me - but savored by Mika.
At 23:00 there is still more: Two "news
items"...
After
the Shabbat dinner of daughter, mother, grandmother,
I felt like sitting down at the piano. Efrat was eager to make
me play
the Hebrew version of the Hymn
to Joy.
If only I would be a bit more gifted! I could play the tune,
but not the chords, so we simply sang it together,
hoping that Mika would begin to catch the tune.
Then I ruefully returned to sheet-music,
finally enjoying my resurrected
piano
and enjoying even my poor playing
and being deeply touched by three songs I sang
(Mika, who had fun with Imma in bed before sleep, said to Imma,
that she once would like to be able to sing like savta..)
3 songs by Robert
Schumann, which I hadn't sung and played for 30 years...
"Fruehlingsfahrt: Es zogen
zwei lust'ge Gesellen",
this and "Die
beiden Grenadiere", made me sad.
But "Mondnacht" is the kind of poem and song,
which would be enough to nourish me for a long time.:
Video Fischer
Diskau
and another
video on the background of a few fantastic slides ,
and yet
another video on the background of moving images
exactly fitting the content
Es war als
haett' der Himmel die Erde still gekuesst,
dass sie im Bluetenschimmer von ihm nun traeumen muesst.
Die Luft ging durch die Felder, die Aehren wogten sacht,
es rauschten leis die Waelder, so sternklar war die Nacht.
Und meine Seele spannte weit ihre Fluegel aus,
flog durch die stillen Lande als floege sie nach Haus.
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In
3 SAT Auslandsjournal 10 PM an item was announced,
which made me wait for it: the
ramFM93.6 radio-station,
with licence from Ramallah (since no more licenses are given in
Israel),
paid by the Jewish millionaire Issie Kirsch, who also founded
such a station in South-africa and had a major influence on the
breakdown of the Apartheid
Vision and Mission Statement
93.6 RAM FM is a South African initiative ...
The vision of 93.6 RAM FM is to create a basis
for communication and establish an arena for daily social interaction.
The directors of the South African Holding Company have all
had many years of senior management experience in commercial
radio broadcasting. The directors are:
93.6 RAM FM is a fresh, English-language radio station that
aims to promote bridge building and dialogue
through contemporary music, plus the latest hits, high-profile
guest interviews, talk shows and informational programs.
93.6 RAM FM will also provide reliable, impartial and independent
news from the Middle East.
93.6 RAM FM is a new marketing tool in the region and will
offer a maximum of eight minutes of advertising in English per
hour. It projects a listening audience of 500,000 English-speakers
from Gaza, the West Bank, East and West Jerusalem, Tel Aviv
and the coastal areas.
93.6 RAM FM also reaches an international audience through
audio streaming on the internet.
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