InteGRATion into GRATeFULLness
Singing&Sounding keeps me Sound

2007_12_16

A Yiddish folksong

I learnt the song from the song-book, given to me 40 years ago by my fiancé's girlfriend Chana Fairstein-Bloch. now I learn, that there are other versions of the lyrics

Another version: . Sha! Shtil! Macht nisht keyn gerider! Der rebe geyt shoyn tantsn vider. Sha! Shtil! Macht nisht keyn gevalt! Der rebe geyt shoyn tantsn bald.   Un az der rebe tanst, Tantsn doch di vent Lomir ale plyeskn mit di hent Un az der rebe tantst, Tantst doch mit der tish Lomir ale topen mit di fis Sha! Shtil! Macht nisht keyn gerider Der rebe geyt shon zingn vider. Sha! Shtil! Macht nisht keyn gevalt, Der rebe gayt shoyn tantsn bald.

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2011_12_21

continued in order to be completed on this page

While still safe and secure in the southward bound train,
I read in my diary of 1993,
and came across the wondrous experience on Pesach 1993.
Pesach in Succah-in-the-Desert,
the only one of all my creations, which is still manifest on this planet
A balanced number of Israeli and German guests, including children,
inspired me
to stage a real Exodus from Slavery in Egypt to Freedom in the Desert.

There was the song "Nigh is the day, which will be neither day nor night",
[listen to it on SongGame 2007, April 15, the date of my immigration with Immanuel
and the birthday of Jonathan , my eldest male grandchild, my daughter's firstborn]
printed out in both German and Hebrew and glued into the diary.
I was moved! Hadn't I mentioned this song at the end of my dedication to Mika,
in the book of the Hebrew Koren-Bible, which I had given her to her birthday?
I placed my identy-card,
the adjacent photo of Tomer and the note about "my desire for peers"
next to the flame, Mika's and my co-creation, with her first-grade handwriting:
"Beautiful Flame, thank you, that you light up"

Another accidental page from the Bar-Mitzva Album of Mika's Father:
And this is what I wrote to Immanuel on this composition of ca 1973:
"Ancient Egypt and Modern Chemistry, Architecture and Christianity -
has there ever been an area,
in which you haven't taken interest in one of the periods of your life?"

I - still in the train - take 2 more photos of pages in my 1993 diary ~~~
the documentation could fill a book of history or of comtemplation.....

[January 14, 2012: After the significant evening with 7-12 people in Daniel's new desert-home,

Boris and I analyzed what in our behavior was keeping the people together and what not.

Should a person like me or him , indeed "keep the people together around a vital theme?"
Or is it preferable to be "passive" and let people find their way of talking what fulfils them?
Boris informed me of a "mitzvah" called "hakhêl!"-"assemble" yes, of a festival with this aim.
He explained: "a speaker who has something to say, should gather people around him etc."
I opposed strongly:
"No our task is to make other people speak and that was my intent.
I may fail ever so often, but that is my task and that is your task , too!"
He was stunned: "Yes~~~ of course~~~ that's how it should be."

Re-reading this self-admonishment of 1993 I bow my head,
for so often I'm still not catching the opportunity :
when another person asks me a question about my life, work, dream etc.
I must know, that the questioner actually expects a bit of empowerment for himself.
So even when that little boy asked , looking at Succah-in-the-Deart:
"who built all this?"
Instead of answering, I could have responded:
"Do you like it? Would you also like to....?" ]

On this day of my lekhi-lakh I payed close attention to 3 phenomena: the road-bridge above the train-tracks, the ruins of what must have been a house, the green plants with a tiny yellow blossom. Around Arad there is still no sign of spring...

While walking around the station of Lehavim-Rahat, waiting for the next train to take me after my stuff, I focused on the junction, to which the road leads, the road which bridges the train-tracks here. The junction where I so often had waited in order to hitchhike back to Arad, when I came all the way down from Shoham.

After having watched the cars coming from the junction, driving towards Arad,
and the cars coming from Arad, approaching the junction and probably turning to the right, north,
I let go of this place and its memories
of being a wanderer, a hitchhiker between my family and my home.
It's difficult to express what I feel,
and I also feel shame for displaying these dreary views which won't interest anyone but me.

I wait behind the yellow blossoms of the green shrub, before I cross the space in front of the train-station. I see the sign of the wheel-chair and I wonder......

Walking along the platform inside the station, I discern these plates in the paved ground. One says -3 times - on 3 adjacent rectangular plates: Train of Israel Communication and the other says - on a circle within a square: Train of Israel Electricity

I watch the empty benches across the tracks, where voyagers would ascend the train from Beersheva up North.   I watch the road behind a huge, long truck heads towards that junction.. And I muse and ponder... Will I ever stand here again?

Under the glass roof above the benches on my side of the tracks, the side for travelers from Lehavim-Rahat to Beersheva, I discern something, which probably no one discerned before: the nest of bird-parents and perhaps eggs or chickens. I was moved....   And then one last glance to the north, from where the train would be coming, and from where that girl, Zohar Baruch, can be seen coming towards me. Soon we'll ascend the train together, sit opposite each other, talk with each other, and even though the time is not yet ripe, we'll soon live in a world, where we are allowed to enjoy each other

I'm stunned - now on December 31, 2011, 20:30,
while I'm completing these two pages,
that they are a symbol of what I just understood
at the end of the last page of Healing-K.i.s.s.
"Das Herz ist wach - The Heart is awake"


My new "Magnetic Field"
of healing-learning-creating
will be a website in Hebrew,
called
"shamayim bli shi'amum"
perhaps to be translated as
"Heaven's Kingdom without boredom"
Its sole purpose will be
"to make the train come"!
(see Godchannel.com>"A Letter from God to Those Doing the Healing-Work" Channeled on 2000/08/16

Rare pictures of my family's experiences in 2012, see SongGame 2007_12_18