Arad, September 16, 2009- continuation
of "Elah and Eilat"
But this was not all, "God"
had in store for me during that voyage from Eilat to Arad.
Akram had just let me off at the T-junction to the Rotem-Company [see
on March 14!] and then to Arad,
when a private car stopped, with two similar-looking, blue-eyed young
men in it.
I had not yet taken my seat, when one of them exclaimed:
"You have the same symbol on your neck
which I let craft for my wife for our wedding!"
and the other exclaimed: "are you Christa-Rachel
Bat-Adam?"
Both are called Nimrod, though one of them added a "hey",
an "h" : Nimrhod,
and one of our many issues was the understanding of this name Nimrod
or Nimrhod.
But in re-living this weird encounter, I want to confine myself to the
main issues.
They were on their way to the Rotem Company and Nimrhod entered it,
while Nimrod and I were sitting on a stone outside – a bit pestered
by flies.
After we had pondered one aspect of the compounded coincidence,
the Right Use of Will
symbol ,
which probably no other woman except for me and his wife Shirlee wears
on her neck,
my work was again – though on another level altogether -
to show a way out of victimhood - to taking responsibility for what
we create in our dramas.
Nimrod had met and later married Shirlee,
while she was a student of W's "Merkhavim" .
There she studied for a year, together with Nimrhod,
who was the partner of Telila Haendel,
with whom he had visited Ceanne de Rohan, in order to get her agreement
to translate "Right Use of Will" into Hebrew.
At my time – 1995 in Boulder/Colorada – Ceanne would not
agree to receive me,
and there was no question, that RUOW should NOT be translated .
Though the book was not often mentioned
in the "Merkhavim" studies,
the symbol was important for Shirlee,
and that's why her fiancé let craft it for her it in silver and
gold.
I told my own story about Tamah, another exiled pupil of "Merkhavim",
and how she had - during the Festival of Shittim on March 7 -
- removed the symbol from her neck:
"I've asked a silversmith in India to make
it for me,
but now I know, it is meant for you!"
See more in SongGame
about my birthday
Mentioning Tamah, Nimrod dared to come
out with his pain and anger
about W. and about himself.
I knew, of course, what the pain was.
But after so many years of healing myself from so many pains, which
I attracted into my drama
it was clear, that here my help was needed and perhaps put to use swiftly.
Since there already was so much common language between us
- exactly because of W. and what Nimrod, Nimrhod and Shirlee learnt
from her -
it was much easier than it had been with Akram -
to make him aware of how and for what purpose we attract actors into
our drama,
and why and for what purpose we let ourselves be triggered by them.
Later, when we all had arrived at my castle in Arad and sat for a while
on my veranda,
I also made them aware of how they could and should womb W..
I told my own exciting story with her, so crucial in its joys and in
its pains,
and ended:
"Try to see her from a perspective beyond
this life:
Why did she write the script for her drama like that?
I, by contrast, have no problem whatsoever with "Ego"
( I didn't say, that my problem seems
to be the lack of "Ego"),
but I have plenty of other formidable problems.
So , if you see W. coping with such a pain-causing monster,
for so many years now,
wouldn't it be healing for her, as well as for yourself,
to simply "womb" her in your womb,
where there is only acceptance, no judgment,
only compassion for what she has taken upon herself to learn? "
I've been writing this 2 days later,
after – yesterday – I came in contact with a book "Spontaneous
Evolution",
which resonates strongly with my own knowing
and is definitely exemplified by how the stages of my hitchhiking were
set up.
It is again the insight I had during the
Walk about Love:
Contrary to my belief, that I should interact only with people,
with whom a long-term relationship of trust, intention and consistent
learning would be possible,
I am now "sent" out to people by hitchhiking – to meet
them for a short time
but a time, which would make them more awake and aware,
and this without needing to cope with the triggers,
which they soon might attract from me, if they would let me into their
lives…
The same is true also for me:
I do not have to cope with others being triggered by me!
I do not have to make myself small and be so terribly cautious!
I can be all me – great and powerful –
while climbing up the mountains from the Dead Sea in a truck with an
Arab driver.
Nimrhod is almost a copy of my
fiance Martin Fincke 50 years ago...
What does all this mean?
It will reveal itself in the future.
