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The Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

to help me and my potential P E E R s

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"

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I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

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July 4/ Rosh Chodesh Tammuz , Friday, - at Arad
[In 1985 I had chosen Rosh Chodesh Tammuz as the beginning of my lekh-lekha with my bus!]
re-edited on July 9, 2013

back to past ~~~~~ forward to future

The FOCUS of MY INTENTION TODAY

Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may!
8:15 [I feel - even more than usual, that too much "needs to be done" today,
though Tzippi now informed me, that they'll come to Arad only at 9 PM, -
she says it was good with Tomer, but she also feels, she needs to be alone & might not invite him to stay after the weekend]
I desire to "womb" all these feelings of "stress", as well as my judgment against feeling them!
I desire that Tzippi and Tomer will have another good day , = a chance for each of them to grow.
I desire to move & accept the pressure of preparing for Efrat's birthday tomorrow here with me.
I desire to let Body help me to find balance and serenity through all my "unjustified" upheaval!

image of the day

hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

8:30
My Body, my Partner, my God
I give thanks to you and your brain,
which is - as those neurologists finally confirm, -
thus aligning with Godchannel -
[though "Spirit" seems to not have used the term "brain" even once, see Search]
the "place" where our feeling and thinking originates.
I'll imagine my "intending" , as well as my focusing on accepting my feelings,
- in this physical place in you: our brain!
and thus unite with you, my Body, in a continuous, physically sensed way!

I am grate-full, that I can watch my "unjustified" emotional turmoil
without judging myself, and without escaping somewhere.
I am grate-full, that my rebirth-breathing
and the contracting-releasing of our sphincter muscles
are so helpful in accepting and maybe healing "my being" today.
I am grate-full that Tzippi-Tomer are still together with the goats in the desert
I am grate-full that there is nothing "big" to worry about in my personal life
and that therefore I have the chance to finetune to every moment & breath.
I am grate-full, that I can now take my National Insurance from the bank
and thus pay my rent to my landlords,
and go to the shop and buy what I'm pressured to buy
so as to not feel shame in the presence of my family tomorrow.

Thanks for the way I was led to a great idea for Efrat's birthday!
[See on Sunday if it will have worked!]

And - while opening the page with my song in her honor,
with which I was inspired, truly inspired, on June 23,
I see the passage about Eitan Tam and how I wondered about his contacting me and I add there:

On July 4, Lior Oren called me!
Eitan - in his next letter - told me, that his daughter once worked at the Ein-Gedi Fieldschool
and was still a friend of Joel Oren, the director, who had to leave, because he had accepted ME.
His daughter, Lior Oren, then 11, is the sixth starchild, or actually the first,
because Tzippi and the four others came to me only 5 years later...
"I now need you in my life",
she said, and also that she has been in the army for a year and a half already.
We'll meet next week and this time I don't feel disturbed in my holy solitude! I am happy!

2013-07-09- About 2 weeks ago Lior separated from me yet another time - encouraged by me...

from "Noah's Shore: Dreamers", 2004

News from Spaceweather,com
Earth at Aphelion
Earth does go around the Sun, but not in a circle. Earth's orbit is an ellipse, a lopsided curve with one end closer to the Sun than the other.

On July 4, 2008, our planet is at the distant end--a point astronomers call "aphelion." This puts us farther from the Sun than we are at any other time of year.

"All planets in our solar system travel around the Sun in elliptical orbits. It's Kepler's 1st Law," explains University of Florida astronomy professor George Lebo. "The eccentricity of Earth's orbit is 1.7%. In January when we're closest to the Sun (perihelion), the distance is 147.5 million km. In July we're 152.6 million km away--a five million kilometer difference."

A distant sun means less sunlight for our planet. "Averaged over the globe, sunlight falling on Earth at aphelion is about 7% less intense than it is at perihelion," says Roy Spencer of NASA's Global Hydrology and Climate Center (GHCC).

WEIRD SUNSET: Even at a distance, the sun can amaze. Consider this: "On June 29th, the sun got below the marine layer here in La Jolla, California, and something weird happened," reports Steve Shuey. "I took this picture ...
"The sun’s light is slanting through layers of air at different temperature and being split, bent upwards and downwards to make this weird apparition. A multiple mirage has chopped the sun into at least eight slices. The lowest slice on the sea is actually rising upwards from the waves! The apparently choppy sea is also part of the mirage. Smoke from the Californian fires trapped in the temperature inversion layers has darkened the mirage center."

Finetuning to my Present
[Written the next morning at 6:50 and inserted here, since the page of July 5 is dedicated to Efrat !]

Except for going to the pool twice, watering the garden,
going to town twice - first to the postal bank and the two groceries,
then, because the birthday idea, which came up only after that, demands certain pins,
and watching part of a doc about Luxembourg, while eating my lunch,
I worked with utmost intensity on this page about Tomer and the letters to his father,
and on the birthday page for Efrat tomorrow.
It was planned, that Tzippi and Tomer would come to Arad at 9 PM,
and I was glad, that they were late - it gave me additional time.
Only at 22:30 did I start to worry.
When taking up my phone, I saw "unanswered calls" from Tzippi and also from Efrat.
I called Tzippi - "no, I didn't call you, and yes, we are on our way now!"
I called Efrat - "I called you in the early afternoon, not now."
"Is it still relevant?"
"I wanted to tell you, that you can return with us, if you want.
But then I heard, that Immanuel had already written you that."
Her tone of voice was so distant and cold, that I began to fear ,
that all my work and plan for today may not be to her liking at all:
The song, the fourfold weaving, the page with the images,
all around the theme of stepmother and stepson.

I'm even trembling with fear now - 7:07 the next morning:
The fear says: "Maybe she is so afraid of "Tomer coming into my life",
that she isn't at all looking forward to this day, her birthday at Arad.
And maybe she is still triggered by the "grape-story",
though Immanuel - following my letter - understood their misunderstanding
as a trigger they had created for themselves
(they had interpreted a remark to Tomer as if I had undermined their authority,
while the opposite had been intended by me: to strengthen their authority...)"

Tzippi and Tomer finally arrived after 11 PM,
in addition to the problem of finding someone who would take them to Tel Shoqet,
there was another problem, created by Tomer, as he told me twice ,
once in front of Tzippi, and once during the short time we sat on the dark veranda,
he with a cigarette in his mouth,
but also picking out some of the apple-cuttings I had prepared for this situation.
He said it in a humorous tone, but obviously guilt-ridden:
"Tzippi's friend Ziv was supposed to fetch us from Tel-Shoqet to Arad.
But when he came, he didn't want to take me, because he felt pissed off by me.
In the end he took us but only to the outskirts of Arad.
Tzippi then had to call her friend Shai to fetch us with his car."
"But what did you do to anger Ziv?
"He called --- Tzippi was in the shower --- I took up her phone,
and said" - and he mimicked the voice of a grownup man - "Tzippi isn't here!"
"So you damaged the relationship between Tzippi and her friend?"
"Tzippi and I didn't think he would take it so seriously."

When they got out of Shai's car (I thanked Shai again for watering my garden last week),
Tomer embraced me dramatically:
"Savta! I don't want to quarrel with you anymore!"
He let me go, and after some moments, hugged me again, warmly.
If I still had a grudge against him ( and I hadn't...) , it would have all melted away.

And yet - nothing seems to be the same,
not with Tomer and not with his father and stepmother.
It is probably "only in my head" and everything IS normal.
But neither can I deny my fear, I'm crying now....
I'll soon go to the pool - Tomer may sleep - on the veranda - until ten o'clock-
and move my fear and find the unity with my spirit in the heart of Body.

Continuation of the experience with Tzippi, Tomer and the goats on the Family Farm of Keren&Meron Eren, July 2
interwoven with a letter exchange between Tomer's Abba and Tomer's Savta

Tomer had just joined us (at about 8:30),
when he discovered
that the foot of a goat was caught in a tree fork..

It was a dramatic day with the goats, yesterday,
Tzippi told me this morning (July 4) on the phone,
"in addition to that broken horn of a kid
(see the image to the right),
one goat died
and one goat gave birth"