I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a   pioneer of  Evolution  in  learning  to  feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

7:40
My Body, my Partner,
I give thanks to our digestive system,
which does its work so efficiently, adapting to all exterior circumstances
to extract energy from the many different, dissimilar food ingredients
which I eat, even gorge and gulp, without any discernment or caution.

I give thanks to all the people in my town,
who take care of removing the garbage from our houses and streets.
I am always aware of you, doing such a dirty job,
since it's almost the only noise I hear here - every Monday&Thursday:
the motor of your truck and the banging of our bins

You see, I have joyfully, wholly, grate-fully accepted your advice,
to communicate with you - from now on - as the "peer" I long for.

"I rejoice in you!
!"

I choose a special background from my archive,
and two coloured fonts which will be visible on it.

I let go of Michelangelo's Creator-Creation image:

I prefer the flashing little triangular pyramid:
the one three-dimensional space
bordered by four two-dimensional triangles.
This pyramid - also called tetrahedron - symbolizes

YOU AS ONE,
SPIRIT~~~WILL~~~HEART~~~BODY

In time I may re-learn to add sound to it.

"I am delighted!"

Our communication started already in the pool,
which for no reason is almost empty on Monday mornings.
Usually I sing when I swim and swing ,
but in the people-free water I could easily focus on our talk.
I watched you sculpting your sentences artfully,

"Yes, thank you for this chance to create through you!"

and I sensed how the lines in one of my songs
happened right there and then:

"what I do is what you are doing through me,
what you do is what I am doing through you,
I accept all you experience, you accept all I experience"

and also the lines in another song:

"What are deeds to us, what are honor and bravery to us!
For all your manifestations in matter we must give thanks!,
For all your materializations in my feeling I do give thanks!"

I helped you translate this into English right now, didn't I?

You most certainly did!
Now I can savor those lines in English too!

Let me try to reconstruct what we talked about.
As you know, I was blaming myself.

Oh, yea! What else is new!

I sat in the jacuzzi all alone,
a delight in itself!
But there was more:
one of the windows was open,
and the cold air made the vapors from the hot pond visible,
and the sun, which at that moment burst through the clouds,
made the bubbles in the water sparkle
and the vapors arising from it gleam.
It was glorious, but I - poor pathetic me - was busy,
busy with the pettiest of pettiest of pettiest problems!

"Now do not get into the self-ridiculing game again!
I showed you how to view this differently, didn't I?"

You did!
But to make me internalize your perspective through writing,
I've to tell the "problem" and it's still hard not to feel ashamed:

"No!
Describe the problem in the light of my three-fold view,
which you liked!"

[I sigh...]

"Of course! It's easier to hang on to your addiction to self-blame"

Alright! but help me to make this short!

"Making it short?
Because you are afraid of eventual readers' lack of patience?
Take all the length you need!
It's your learning, it's your living,
and as for me
I have all the time of infinity - I won't rush you!"

Thank you!

But let me first summarize your perspective:

a) Laugh about yourself light-heartedly!!


b) Admit that the glory you sensed and saw,
was even more sensual and more visual
because ! it was contrasted
by your "problem"!


c) View the handling of your "problem"
as a "Mika-Beads&Berries-Game"!

I'll now let this insight work like yeast in a dough,
and see, if there will be a chance at Shoham today,
to watch Mika's game even more intensely
than I did already some months ago
in "Mika's small Creations with Nature"!

"There will be a chance, I promise!"

Thank you, MY PEER !

This is a photo from the Chanuka Page about the Pool, Dec.6, 2007,
This time the experience was even stronger.
20 minutes later - after swimming - I tried to catch the vapors,
but the sun had became pale, and the vapors without glamour:

On my way home I found a discarded narciss
on the sideway, close to my house.
Later, when I had finally made up my mind,
and gone into what was such a "trouble" for me,
until I learnt to see it from "God's" perspective,
i.e. into filling out a check,
- scribbling a note about its purpose,
- writing the address on an envelope,
- searching for a stamp - luckily I had one!
- and staging the 3 items under that narciss,
~~~~
I saw the similarity between the narciss and the flower on the stamp!
And a big smile made me take this photo:

the two songs of today:

to unite YH with WH in whole union

our Father, our King