2005_03_21; last update: 2011_01_06 >Continuation
of "My Visit to the Cave of the Womb" on 11_01_01
To YOU AS ONE,
SPIRIT~WILL~HEART~BODY
I'm content and happy, Folks!
I did everything on my part, to have my tent erected next to Samira's
place.
But it's wrapped up now on my veranda in Arad.
Which means:
"You" are giving me still some "time" to indulge
in the joys of my "castle",
and - among other things - to learn and create on my website.
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The first thing I came across on this day
of Equinox was
A
Message from the Mother of Manifestation
which I discovered on" Godchannel" and edited
on "Healingkiss" only 2 months ago.
I want to study it here:
"In the terror and the grief
of the expanding feeling-consciousness
[see definition of "Will
and Spirit"
in the quote of yesterday's communication]
happening in Body for many of you now,
I cannot stress enough,
that feeling and consciousness are happening in BODY.
"Body is the Master Healer
of Creation" and
"Body is God",
and its my Body that tells me to breathe and move and sound
,
when I wake up in the morning with undefined q-ra'-q'ra'
feelings...
you will find many of the voices you have silenced,
hear the cries that caused you to stop up your ears,
and feel the pain you thought you could not bear.
This is not true for me, I've always heard those voices,
and it's only since I discovered and received Body, my healer,
that they no longer drive me insane, but enrich and expand me.
It may feel overwhelming, impossible, sure to drive you insane.
You must discover for yourself that you can do this now,
in this Body,
no matter what your thoughts tell you
or what you have believed about yourself before.
No one can do this work but you.
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So
many good things, though small, keep happening!
So many signs!
Like -
Yahia finally brought Samira to visit me in my flat.
This had been my condition
for agreeing to Samira's repeated quest to stay overnight...
6 days later came Rotem,
my granddaughter (almost 12) for 3
days.
She had the courage to walk and hitchhike with me to Samira's.
We had a windy ride in the back of
a Bedouin pickup -
in the background the new hosting enterprises "Zman
Midbar" and "my" "Rakhaf"
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Samira's
place among the 17 Bedouin families of Biq'at Qanna'im, the
Zealots' valley,
is hidden in a small cut-off desert area, between the town Arad
and famous Masada
In this hidden desert area, between the town Arad and Masada,
the last fortress of the Jewish rebels against the Romans in
the year 72,
[be careful! the website
http://www.masada2000.org/
presents the present Jewish rebels against Israel's present
policy of getting out of some occupied territories...)
There has been functioning only one Jewish hosting business
(since 1990), "Kfar ha-Nokdim",
until in 2003 two other hosting enterprises started to "open"
this area for tourism,
"Zman Midbar",
and the other ~~~ "Rakhaf".
"Kfar
ha-Nokdim" has some "proper" guest-rooms,
but is mainly based on tents,
and in some aspects even inspired by my
"Succah in the Desert",
but it is planned for mass tourism, up to 1000 guests.
The flat mountain in the east is not Masada, as many tourists
assume, but Har Qanna'im, the Zealots' Mountain.
The jeep-road that passes by Kfar ha-Nokdim leads through the
Biq'at Qannaim, the Zealot's valley
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Samira's and Yahia's compound
With Rotem
(my daughter's daughter)
and Ayelet (my younger son's
daughter, see Family)
on Grandma's Wednesday, the day before.
[See
the most recent pictures of both , taken by Ayelet's uncle on her
Bat-Mitzva celebration]
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More
from "A Message from the Mother of Manifestation"
"The gift of a Body is the gift of sovereignty.
It is the gift of power, choice, and ultimately, absolute freedom.
And because of all of the misunderstanding, separations, and
denials,
it has been abused.
"To reclaim the power of Manifestation,
you must forgive yourself for being Body's victim ~ and its
abuser.
Please allow yourself to feel into this before you continue
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in all of the ways that this resonates within you."
"As you find and release the primary judgments against
Body, and Form,
you will gain access to what your body is holding,
and widen the opportunity for your body to clear what it is
holding.
"As you recognize your own parentalness there,
and uncover the deeper layers of your Self;
as you move into and through the rage, terror and grief
more deeply than you thought possible;
you are not only bringing Loving Light where it can heal,
you are participating in the evolution of Deity.
Working backwards is the only way to go forward
because you cannot evolve without all of your Self. |
We stayed with Samira and the seven kids -
evening~~ night~~morning~~noon~afternoon~~~
My problem with understanding the Bedouin kids was bad enough,
but Rotem couldn't communicate verbally at all.
Hathra (11), Ahlaam (7) and Samira tried to make it easy for
her.
There was much painting, playing, dancing and --- watching.
Since I must be extremely careful with photographing there,
I'm inserting the very same kind of play between Rotem
and the quartet on Grandma's Day at Mazkeret Batya the day before
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"And ultimately you must bring all of your Self
into your depths, your darkness;
into your 'past,' your denials;
into your gap, your Hell;
into all of the places you have not wanted to go.
As you know, running from it will not work anymore,
trying to love it will not work anymore,
making someone else responsible for it will not work anymore,
and killing it certainly will not work anymore, if life is what you
seek.
You must go there your Self.
With everything that you have.
This is why it is so important to heal your Spirit
in order to heal your Will.
God can help you with this, if you let him.
"This is the miracle of the gift of a Body,
that can allow you to manifest the deep and complete Communion
that we have so longed to return to,
and this time ~ find that we are no longer alone.
"If
you continue this work,
you must confront the question of who you are.
Could you really be the One,
the most Parental aspect of Manifestation?
For some of you, this is a terrifying prospect,
for it implies that you are responsible for healing
more than you believe you are capable of healing.
For others, it will bring relief to know
that you really are the only one that can do this.
Some will be enraged by this communication,
some will be confused by the paradoxes in it.
Whatever your response, it is not wrong, it is yours,
and if you allow it to,
it will lead you to your relationship to Original Heart,
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Then
we walked all the difficult way up to "Rakhaf"
one more time,
waiting for Yahia to come home for the weekend and fetch my tent.
Since he did NOT suggest to erect it at his place,
we brought it to my flat, as I had taken into account.
I knew then,
that I was granted some more time in my "castle".
[2011_01_06- It was only in January 2006 that In understood,
that I would never erect my tent next to Yahia and Samira...]
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A wadi to the west of the dust-road which we climbed up from
Samira's place to "Rakhaf"
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"I will say
something that has already been said,
but it bears repeating.
As you know, working with this material demands
that you take absolute responsibility
for your own safety and the safety of those around you.
This is necessary now, more than ever.
Yes, time is of the essence, but speed is not.
It is not wrong if you find yourself slowing down
to approach the parts of you that have nearly stopped vibrating.
You must find your own balance of input to process,
and allow those around you the sovereign right to find theirs.
"You are the only one that can know when
you are ready.
You are the only one
that can feel, move and release into healing the terror
that cannot be gone past or around any more.
You are the only one that can take responsibility
for triggering and moving this terror safely.
And of course, the same applies to rage, and to grief.
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There was
also this sign:
When I saw Sa'ar - stressed more than ever - he managed to gasp:
"I need to talk to you about
solar energy on Rakhaf!"
Three days later, while Yahia drove back to work,
and on his way helped me transport a sack of goat manure
which I had gathered for the arid soil of my garden in Arad,
he said:
"What can I do to have a small
solar system like yours,
so that Samira can have radio and TV during the day?"
"And light at night!"
I added with some reproach in my heart,
for if the man isn't there, the woman and kids go to sleep at
seven,
since she is not strong enough any longer to get the generator
working.
Twice I'm approached about solar
energy! Within three days!
And !
I started to make a path through the desert to Samira ........................ |
"Learning to move these feelings in your body safely
is the best way to help yourself,
and judgment release can help the movement
necessary to open your process to new and deeper levels.
The more you can work on the inside, in private,
or in mature relationship,
the less you will have to work with 'outside events'
that can carry your life in directions you don't want to go.
"But when they happen,
take every opportunity to heal yourself in the process,
to understand that your lost essence is trying to return to you in
the only ways it knows how. Y
ou already know what this entails, so I will not say more now ~~~
except to add be gentle with yourselves,
and do not overlook the help that is available to you
when you talk to God or the Mother on the inside.
The key to the union of Original Spirit and Original Will in you is
to identify with Body.
"When you let Divine Body,
the Mother or Father of Manifestation,
peer out through your eyes,
and when you see them gaze back through the eyes of those you love,
you will begin to find the understandings that you seek.
And your movement in Body
will begin to manifest the Creation and Love
your Heart has always desired."
Har Qanna'im, the Zealots' Mountain, as seen
in the east from the 25 minutes dust-road between Kfar Hanoqdim and
Samira's place .
In the near future I'll no longer use this road, neither
forward to next Communication with Deity
2011_01_06
>Continuation
of "My Visit to the Cave of the Womb" on 11_01_01
I lost my path again, and the sections
seen farther down are deluding.
One of the Bedouin compounds is visible,
and so is the crescent of the wadi which will soon pass by my cave.
Of course, there is no water in the
wadi in the draught of this winter - so far...
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