50 days of Moving and E-volving Emotions Manual - 14th day, July 2002

2013

1 5   y e a r s  = 5 4 8 0   days   of g e f u e h l t e - g e f u e l l t e   Z e i t   "inmitten der Ewigkeit", f e l t - f i l l e d   t i m e  "amidst eternity" from the beginning of my 76th till the completion of my 90th year [unless I'll die after all] "A dream is our life on Earth ...we measure ...(it) in space & time" -see 2013 songs August Nr. 4- Yes, I, Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam, want to measure my life on Earth in space & time! 4 days of feelings will be inserted on each of the 1400 pages [set up between 2001-2008] continuing with M E E M and then following the order of folders and files on my "local site". The feeling chosen from a day is exhibited in max. 7 lines per day since August 28, 2013 On 6 days of the week I learn, but Shabbat is dedicated to my main feeling: grate-full-ness. Since feelings must be vibrated~ wombed, each day closes with a song, fitting the 7 lines To challenge myself like that -while not knowing what will be "staged" in my personal and in the world's drama till 2028 , exhilarates me!

2013-10-23-Wednesday- still 5429 days I caused myself a tiny drama, but was guided to solve it. I admit: I'm unable to bear that dog's barking. I dared (!) to send an SMS in my full name: Dr.---, hoping for more respect. Result: cynical belittlement. I went to Matan's house, he was not there. My landlady: "Not you! Ofir must handle this." I trembled!-But it's quiet! Song: When expectations from others.... 2013-10-24-Thursday- still 5428 days Feeling disgust when seeing obese people (="in my wholeness a hole is triggered, that wants to heal") reminds me, that I 'noted' in my 'script for this life': 'I shall be shamed as "fat" even by my mother, so I can train "Self-acceptance starts with feeling all I feel in BODY!" thus becoming a pioneer in learning to feel.' Song: Let my teeth grow [morning-body-song] 2013-10-25-Friday- still 5427 days A tiny quantum-leap in my coping with life's "disturbances" of routine or plans! They still claim that I owe 187820 NIS and now have seized my bank-account, which exists only for the transference of my National Insurance, so now the Health Insurance (hip-operation!) can't draw the monthly payment, s. new Song: 2013-10-26-Shabbat- still 5426 days THANKS for being free of the multitude of payments, that others have to take care of, no house. Arnona, water, cables for TV and Inter-net included in rent! Rent+electricity directly to Ofir! no home-phone, cell-phone payed by Micha, no car, no taxes, the only trans-action once a month: National Insurance song: May 15, 1984

In the face of the renewed harassing by the authority for real-estate taxes,
I recall my and my angel Hagit Zehavi's fight for my innocence in 2012
Here are some photos I took - not in the desert, but in the city of Beersheva
inside the building which houses the Israel Land Administration.

Micha's wife Ra'ayah and Hagit's husband were classmates at Kibbutz Sa'ad,
Last May I was invited to join Micha's family for a Shabbat dinner at Hagit's,
hearing about Hagit's profession, I - humorously - told about "my debt"
Hagit did not let me get away with ignoring it and volunteered to help me.
"They'll harass you till the end of your life, and if you should die, your children."

Two visits (I think) to the Israel Land Administration, asking for help with the Israel Real Estate Taxes, to purify me from their absurd claim           see my reflection in the glass, as I take this photo of people seeking for a job - an authority in the same building

the architecture is pretty, but what do the people feel, who walk up and down, be they employees of customers?

continuation of my hike to Salt-Sea and Noah's Cave on Oct. 26, 2013
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I made it! I reached the army-track between the steep slope above and below Noah's Cave, and though it's still quite some distance to reach the Sea nowadays, it's not dangerous. These two pretty stones were my sign, from where I could find the easiest way. Then - in 2003-2004- I , of course, made a path. But it's gone long ago.

The first "spot of interest" makes me sad: Here had been the pond, nourished from the sulphur-spring, into which I almost fell, exactly 10 years ago, and which was the beginning of the idea that this might be the place, where I would manifest Noah's Vision. It's from there, that I - on the same day, I think - found that rock, under which I would carve out a cave. When the Sea sank, the spring or springs, started to erupt on a deeper level, and again on a deeper level and so on...

this is the "river" that goes out - not from"Eden" but from a sulphur-spring with a flow much stronger than from "my" spring ten years ago

That's where the "River" joins the Sea

And lo and behold! when I, together with "Noah's River" reach the Sea, I see a sculpture, which strongly reminds me of the sculpture of "The Bereaved Mother". It was so outstanding at the northern shore of the peninsula, but over the years it melted into the Sea. I never got enough of capturing it with my camera.

The Bereaved Mother is looking over to where the bigger sculpture was watching the peninsula "at my time". Does it mean, that the Mother will become less bereaved in time????