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The Purpose of HEALING - K.I.S.S.

- as stated 12 years ago - was and is

to help me and my potential P E E R s

"to HEAL ourselves into WHOLEness,

and - by extension - all of CREATion!"

Intro to Healing-K.i.s.s. 2001-2013
and Overview of its main libraries

[If you look for a word on this page,
click ctrl/F and put a word in "find"]

I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I want you to feel everything, every little thing!"

K.I.S.S. - L O G 2 0 0 8
Keep It Simple Sweetheart

	1	2	3	4	5	6	7		"AZ NIDBERU" - My new Midrash and song in 5 languages about the prophecy of Malachi 3, 16 ["YHWH" is named "HA-SHEM"= The Name]
1 2 3	How Learn And	I The Train	Heal Conditions In	Myself For Creating	Into Heaven Those	Whole On Conditions	Self-acceptance Earth Daily	Click!	Then those who see Ha-Shem, will talk among each other, and he listens and he hears yatakaalamuna allathina yarau'na-hu , va-yusri va-yasma' Dann die IHN schauen, werden reden miteinander, und er lauscht und er hoert Puis ceux qu'ils voient Ha-Shem, se parlent l'un a l'autre il entends, il ecoute

It seems that I chose 26 actors for my life's drama and those 26 actors chose me! One common trait of all roles is "mutual dependency" between them and me.
With 16 actors - my family - the mutual dependency is life-long! With my landlords at Arad & with my 6 starchildren, born between 1986-88, it may be temporary.
My children: Immanuel, Ronnit, Micha; my children-in-love: Efrat, Uri, Ra'ayah; my 10 grandchildren [born 1987-2005): Elah-Alon-Tomer-Mika; Jonathan-Rotem-Yael-Itamar; Arnon-Ayelet
My landlords: Ofir & Meital+ Lior (2002) & Amit (2005). My starchildren: Lior Oren, Zipi Winkler , Dina Strat , Meshi Taib, Gal Mor, Boris Arons [26=YHWH=13+13=ahavah+ahavah =LOVE!]

Intro to k.i.s.s.-l o g + all dates ~ Library of 7 years ~ HOME ~ contact ~ SEARCH ( of Latin characters only!) my eldest granddaughter's video-gallery

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2008
November 22
Cheshvan 24

Friday

at

Bet Nehemya

26th day of
Em-
body-
ing
New
Heart

Actions:
Kisslog: healing-creating
TV & Internet: learning
[to Ofir: please water!]
Washing dishes
Walking in nature for almost 2 hours with
Immanuel & Mika

Interactions: Immanuel back
but Efrat won me over and I'll spend the weekend here.
Long coaching for Lior Oren,
partly in my room, partly while walking through the junk-sown tracks of Bet-Nehemya (Efrat wants to move back to Shoham!!)

Parting from
my obsession
to complete
this page---
on Nov. 28

The FOCUS of MY INTENTION TODAY

Know exactly what you want, communicate clearly what you want, then get out of the way, live and play, and let happen what may

12:00
I desire to wholly enjoy this day - both the work on kisslog as the togetherness with my family.
I desire that Tomer will feel at home on his first Shabbat outside his homes with father & mother
I desire that Lior Oren will cope well with the scaring encounter with her friend & love herself.
I desire to laugh at myself for still not having completed those 3 letters & those kisslog pages (about 12)
I desire to no longer try to change the reasons (patterns, judgments) for "ridiculous" feelings,
but to feel, move, accept them - vicariously - for all humans who are afraid to feel 'bad' feelings

The heavy candelabra did not kill us and now hangs safely above the family.

hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

My Body, my Partner, my God
I give thanks to your vitality and wellness!
[no time to be specific]

I'm grate-full for the new camera, though AFTER Immanuel bought it
and returned to his hotel at Hongkong, the old one suddenly worked again.
Since the new one (the same "Cassio", but a bit improved)
came with all the additional equipment, charger, cables, 2 batteries,
I'll enjoy the convenience of a camera+ at Arad & a camera+ at Bet Nehemya!
I'm grate-full that Mika's horrid crying at midnight subsided after 10 minutes,
and I pray: "please let her heal her nightmares or what ever attacks her!"
I'm grate-full that Nella, the dog, who vomited all over the house, is well again.
I'm grate-full, that Immanuel, who returned safelly at 3 AM, already succeeded
in repairing the candelabra by installing 2 sockets in the ceiling & a chain.
I am grate-full for the phone-meeting with Lior, this color of the One rainbow!
I'm grate-full that she knows how to approach me with well thought-of issues,
and that we both feel, how I am "nothing but" her pure, clear sounding-board .
I'm grate-full, that I can ask Ofir to water my garden, whenever I need it.
I'm grate-full for all the wonderful food in this house.

The family is together again, and even Nella recovers in Immanuel's arms, while Efrat drives Mika to kindergarden

Perspectives and backgrounds of the magnificent candelabra

Clouds!!! Is it going to rain finally?

Finetuning to my Present

13:30 After I spoke very clear words to Lior,
with concern to her "assignment" which she chose for today - meeting her best friend again -
about the difference between being "whole" and being "righteous",
I again fell into the trap of "righteousness", i.e. defensiveness, myself.
A nano-situation as usual:
Efrat told Immanuel, that she had fulfilled all the buying-tasks I had given her.
Meaning not only the purse and the milk-jug for me, but also the doormat for their entry door.
Without thinking I jumped to justify myself by adding:
"And I said to Efrat, that if I need to buy something twice a year,
it may be worthy to invest some time in finding the right thing."
Before I had ended the sentence, my son laughed cynically or so my defensiveness projected it...
"twice a year?????"
And once more I fell into the trap:
"Do you remember anything else I've asked for ?"
"Ah! what you have asked for! No, you haven't asked for it!"
Perhaps he meant: we discerned ourselves, that you needed this or that !

I still felt put to shame, i.e. triggered. Which is again absolutely ridiculous. *)
Or isn't it?
During lunch now I said: "I've a quest: that we take a long walk to [the green) border."
"Why to border!!" he said harshly. I promised Mika that we'll take a walk after our nap.
And wherever it will be nice to walk, we'll walk!"
"Why are you attacking her that way", intervened Efrat, "come on, this isn't fair!"
Immanuel, indeed, is impatient with me and jumps at many a naive uttering or quest.
Also - his memory of recent or old events is "very selective", to say the least.**)
Maybe, this is his way to discharge pains concerning me, of which he never became aware.***)
I, in any case, feel rarely triggered, the more so, as usually I'm going out of his way - to Arad.
But on this weekend we'll be together, only he, Efrat and Mika. I desire to radiate wholeness

* ridiculous: see the message on October 29
"If the issues of your sensing and feeling would be "bigger",
you would still be preoccupied with your own separate being.
solving problems on the outside, releasing judgments and beliefs,
healing your own small self into wholeness.
But you are now a manifestation of New Heart in Body on Earth,
and without constant reminders of your task of feeling vicariously
and thus healing into wholeness all of Creation,
you would falter in the realization of your task."

Addition on November 28
** Immanuel keeps "proving" to me, that I have a selective memory. [see below!]
So far I couldn't make clear to him,
that there is a difference
between holes in my memory,
which means, that I've forgotten many - unconnected - events,
though "one cannot forget such things", according to his - and also my - opinion,
and a selective memory,
which means, that he judges an entire period in his childhood or youth
based on a certain memory, which might not even be "objective".

*** In our short, but truly communicative talk the next day
he claimed, that his impatience had nothing to do with childhood traumas.
"Don't you REMEMBER, how we sat under the dommim tree near Kfar-Wradim,
when I systematically retrieved all painful memory from my childhood?"
[Probably around the time, when he matured towards divorcing from R. - 1998]
"I do remember our sitting under a dommim tree, but not the purpose of our talking."
"Yes , we sat there even several times and I believe, that I really cleared and cleaned everything up!"

I am glad for this! Very glad!

Nourishment from Others

Finetuning to my Present

As to the 3 SAT movie yesterday, I was disappointed by the first one:
a thrilling thriller, but without the depth that was promised.

The second movie:
GLAUBENSDRAMA "DAS GELÜBDE"
Voller Wonne bei der Nonne

I was interrupted, when Mika began her horrid crying.
Moreover, though this time it was not the Austrian dialect,
like in "Der Schwarze Loewe", which I couldn't understand,
but proper Hochdeutsch pronounced recklessly,
I became impatient, when I missed too many of the dialogs..
The content seemed to be just the right theme for me.
But soon enough - despite my "interest" in "Stigmata" -
I felt, I should NOT give energy to this kind of violent phenomenon..

song of the day
from Psalm 139 - the verses 11 & 12

If I say,
"Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

-even the darkness
will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you."

Lior Oren:
"Before I parted from my cadets after this 2 1/2 month course
for social workers who take care of ill or handicapped soldiers,
I wanted to write a blessing , part of it to all of them,
part of it personally for each of the 12 girls.
I decided - though scared -to write that passage from Ps.139,
about which you and I talked, maybe 3 years ago.
They might not understand it and even I- do I understand it? but it helps me believe,
that even in the greatest darkness there is light!"

Christa-Rachel
"I've tears in my eyes, Lior!
First that you cherish that psalm!
Second that you could cite it to me so fluently!
Third that you, the army officer, had the courage to quote it ! And don't worry about understanding with the mind
Isn't it like that with all great messages?
We understand them only with our intuition, in our heart!"

How lovely! The merging of cultures in an Israeli song in Moroccan!
Idan Reichel and Shim'on Buskila
- proposed to the public in Ynet Culture Entertainment

2013-02-04- An amazing performance of eight year old Agam (School of Music)

As to more images of our togetherness - the threesome walk and Shabbat Eve
- see tomorrow

Continuation of yesterday's role-play between Mika, her mother and her grandma

While his three girls have great fun together at Bet Nehemya in Israel,
El-Al Pilot Immanuel spends yet another night in a hotel,
this time in Hongkong

After he had bought the new camera for me,
he tries the old one again: suddenly it works!