I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution
in learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!!
"I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
K.I.S.S. -
L O G 2
0 0 8
Keep It Simple Sweetheart
whole&full-filled, never perfect&complete
I give thanks to the Internet, that sign of Heaven on Earth,
and to Internet Explorer, latest version, just now installed by Immanuel on this
new computer - thanks again! -
and its new possibilities, like having all webpages open as
tabs,
that let me access them simultaneously.
Thanks to the amazing magic of "log me in",
which lets Immanuel see and work on my computer in Arad,
while he sits at his computer in Shoham.
I asked
for a message from you through the
yellow book of RUOW,
but it wasn't helpful either.
I feel its relevance, but can't pin it down with my mind.
I'll go to town now, to see, why the memory card is lost from
my phone,
and then to the pool.
I'll listen to you while walking and swimming.
Please be there, even if you are "NOT MY PEER".
21:47 No answer, except an urge,
to use the opportunity of having to go to Modi'in from Shoham
by car,
and cause Ya'acov to face me.
"An urge? Doesn't it occur to you, that this IS my response?
And that I arranged the fault with your phone for that purpose?
Since Ya'acov was the one person on this planet at present,
whom you asked to be your daily healing-learning peer via
"Skype",
wouldn't it be a good idea to check again,
if communication with him may
suit you more than communication with me,
at least with me as YOUR PEER?"
I don't know. I'm still angry
and frustrated with you.
And I still haven't found "the time" to cope with
this.
I want YOU, that is clear, but who of you? What of you?
"You'll find your peer or YOUR
PEER - soon!"
Amen...
synchronicity
Yesterday
I told the story about the lamp-accident.
An hour later Boris called : "Ahlaan Rachel".
He was outside the pool and I inside. "Please, update me, while I'm in the water,
for my time (for old citizens) is already over."
So he told me, among other new things,
that he got a job of installing and repairing lamps
in one of the Dead Sea hotels!
I told him the coincidence and stressed: "Now you know the message:
it will be a job that may decide over life and death!"
Also yesterday, when I ran
home from the pool,
in order to hear the 10 minutes poetry with Lutz Goerner
about Christian Morgenstern,
I zapped into the 5 min. news before the program,
which ended with the praise of Thomas
Morgenstern,
a World Champion in Ski Jumping.
"Morgenstern" - Morningstar - isn't this
a Jewish name?
I
came back from town with good news, with very bad news and with
a "bead/berry/bubble" challenge, in this order: - The good news: In the postal bank I
was told, that the National Insurance Authority has raised
my pension by 140 NIS to the total amount of 2230 NIS.
- The very bad news, roaring from a kiosk TV set: a
suicide terrorist act in a mall at Dimona, the closest
town to Arad, one victim dead, the other terrorist shot.
- The "bead/berry/bubble" challenge is, that the memory-card
of my cellphone can only be repaired/replaced in a
big "Orange" centre, at Beersheva or Modi'in.
Two movies forwarded to me by Ofir, my
landlord:
One was called: "The Five Disciplines: sports acrobatics
- three women, two men.
The other - obviously from "Riverdance" - was called
"Teamwork".
Two opposing approaches to Body. Both prove discipline, both
prove teamwork
but~~~ the~~~ team ~~~dance~~~ is~~~friendly~~~to~~~ Body....
Jonas
Kaufmann: "Was gibt es Schöneres,
wenn man aus seinem Hobby einen Beruf macht und damit noch richtig
Geld verdient. Ist doch phantastisch!"
In der Tat nicht schlecht,
wenn man bedenkt, dass Kaufmann beinahe Mathelehrer geworden
wäre! Seit Jahren schon singt er nun in den allerwichtigsten
Häusern: von der New Yorker Met bis zur Mailänder
Scala. Jetzt stellt er sich mit einer Solo-CD vor: "Romantische
Arien". Natürlich schmelzen wir dahin – völlig
unnötig, ihn auf dem Cover noch als Latin Lover zu vermarkten.
Jonas Kaufmann: "Das ist ja
schön und nett und ich fühle mich geschmeichelt, wenn
man das erwähnt, aber letztlich ist das nichts, was ich
aus eigener Leistung erreicht habe. Das ist etwas, was man in
mich hinein projiziert."
...– er singt sie nicht nur - er
lebt seine Rollen!
Jonas Kaufmann: "Diese ganzen
Gefühle, die man da erzeugt, muss man letztlich auch in
sich tragen. Obwohl das gar nicht mit Worten zu fassen ist,
ist es irgendwo zwischen den Zeilen. Das liegt eben daran, dass
die Stimme dieses… Es gibt dieses hochtrabende Wort: die
Stimme ist der Spiegel der Seele. Im tiefsten Kern stimmt das."
I paint the
white page
with blue sky and water
with yellow I paint light
the night in black
with green - plants
with red - flowers
and all the colors I use
for drawing on the page the rainbow.
All the colors I use
for drawing on the page the rainbow
2
weeks ago, when I accompanied Mika to Hanni,
to the sound&movement group,
I was taken by a song on a disc which Hanni used
and quickly recorded the second stanza on my cell-phone.
I learnt the lyrics and with incredible effort also learnt the
tune .
May the authors (who?) forgive me some small adaptations.
