hodayot [thanksgivings] for today

8:30
My Body, my Partner,
I give thanks to our wholeness,
to the harmonious functioning of all our "members",
to the harmonious appearance and countenance,
and my heart aches with Eli, a pilot on light aircrafts,
with whom my son flew during a day off near L.A.,
Eli (= 'my God'), a dwarf, distorted in body and face,
with ever so many handicaps, "but bigger than any of us",
said Immanuel when he showed us photos and a video.

I give thanks to you, Tomer,
for finding a way to be with me and walk with me,
though you need to prevent me from any question about yourself.
Some of the songs you showed me on the Internet, I really liked,
despite the genre of "folk-metal" mixed with "growl", i.e. Sensorium
or despite the depression in the brilliant songs of
Eviatar Banai and Yoni Bloch

Being consciousness is a torment
The more we learn is the less we get
Every answer contains a new quest
A quest to non existence, a journey with no end

No one surveys the whole, focus on things so small
But life’s objective is to make it meaningful
Only searching for this
That which doesn’t exist
Although our ability to relativize remains unclear

Being consciousness is a torment
The more we learn is the less we get
Every answer contains a new quest
A quest to non existence, a journey with no end

I’m not afraid to die
I’m afraid to be alive
without being aware of it
2013: These lines are "growled"

I’m so afraid to, I couldn’t stand to
Waste all my energy on things
That do not matter anymore

Our future has already been written by us alone
But we don’t grasp the meaning
Of our programmed course of life
Our future has already been wasted by us alone
And we just let it happen and do not worry at all

We only fear what comes
And smell death every day
Search for the answers that lie beyond


It ends with a "growl"

to another upload of this performance
someone comments:
Simone is gorgeous,
much prettier than any supposedly "sexy" pop star I've seen.
But whether she is or isn't, why would it matter?
She's a musician, not a dancer or something.
I'm wondering
when music became a visual
and not audial medium.
Someone should really notify every dictionary.

User Comment to Aviatar Banai [read in 2013]

Eviatar Banai:
Avot u-banim

2013 How come that people listen to such a poor voice?
Perhaps because -
despite his great sadness-
he "entertains" people
like in this performance
which includes "a story about Red-Cap and the Wolf ['ze'ev)
["for in the morning,
when my voice is so deep, that my friends don't recognize it, say ask:
"z'Evi"? (is this Evi?=Eviatar)

Titchaneni Elay

I've a few minutes left before breakfast, packing and leaving for Arad.


I stopped you from running away and wasting these minutes
with

[No more minutes...]

More tomorrow