I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in
learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
1)
E-volving, Un-folding the "SPS" resources
of the Desert
S P A C E
P U R I T Y
S I L E N C E
[as opposed to the cities' crowdedness, pollution
& noise],
will be the great CHALLENGE , which will
help Jews and Arabs
to bring about E Q U
A L I T Y in S E L F
- E S T E E M .
2)
Since 1974, my peace-work[started in 1958] has been based on:
Transforming a negative dependency into a positive
dependency.
3)
Positive dependency or" Partnership" is based on 3 conditions:
COMMON INTEREST / MUTUAL TRUST / EQUALITY in SELF-ESTEEM.
4)
After 40 years of having PRACTICALLY tested this theory ,
I know, that EQUALITY in SELF-ESTEEM can only be realized,
if the adversaries, forced into mutual dependency by destiny,
will engage in COPING TOGETHER
with a CHALLENGE
which is SO BIG , that it DWARFS the GAP in SELF-ESTEEM.
Now, in 2002, not many remember "Camp-David",
but even at that time not many knew, what made it successful.
In January 1980, during our Partnership journey in the USA,
I went to see Prof. Roger Fisher, Harvard University,
in whose book "Dear Israelis, Dear Arabs",
I found a similar, though less clear concept: "Convert adversaries into friends!"
I say "less clear", because
to be friends is not necessary.
To take care of my self-interest is necessary!
Prof. Fisher told me: "I played tennis with the Foreign
Minister, Vans,
and he asked me about ideas for Camp David.
I said to Vans:
"Confine the Israelis and the Egyptians to separate rooms.
Then circulate a paper between them, back and forth,
on which they have to mark the paragraphs,
to which they do NOT agree.
In the end some paragraphs will not be marked by either side.
These then will make up the agreement."
I expressed my admiration
for this manipulation, but added: "But once they were up to new problems,
they reacted just as before, didn't they!" He understood and called his assistant, a
Jew. "We have to introduce a learning element into our
theory."
I follow my
understanding and new lekh-lekhâ on January 1, 2009,
that - after 7 years -
I should no longer create new pages on my 2 websites,
but intermingle the evidence of new experiences with that on existing
pages.
In this case: my experience with Neve-Shalom (April 19-21, 2009) during
the
"Walk About Love 2009"
continuation
of April 20, 2009 , our 40 hours at Neve-Shalom;
latest update of this page:
July 29, 2009;
update about Abie Natan
on July 16, 2013
Most of the children in the Neve Shalom School
come from Jewish and Arab villages in the the environment
and now wait for their busses to go home.
Next to the stone: Gil Sason,
our original leader, Michal Rosenzweig, also a leader, and Yoav, a
newcomer.
"The Shalom Succah in honor of Abie
Natan, the Shalom Man, dedicated by his friends in 1999." We , David Troim and Ya'acov Hayat and
I - went to see him, "partneroring"
for the
RedSeaPartnerSHIP in 1997...
July 16, 2013
about Christa-Rachel Bat-Adam and Abie Natan
If my constant consciousness/feeling during the day
and dreaming during the night
are not enough to "work out" something,
I'm forced to wake up and turn and twist and moan and groan
in bed , usually for 2 hours.
It's this what happened tonight.
Among the multitude of infos that came to me during the day,
mainly from carefully selected and recorded TV programs,
-integrated into what my task is: to be a pioneer of evolution
in feeling~vibrating~wombing~understanding vicariously,
there was just one "small" item, which caused the
upheaval tonight.
In the daily program in Channel 2, "Anashim" ("People"),
a young woman, Jasmin
Feingold, the Israeli champion in rowing... featured with her difficult story
concerning her drowning for 4 min. 4 years ago,
having never become "the
girl I was before",
regretting this, though, as she says,
she also loves the girl she is now.
Suddenly I heard, that she was born in 1989 as the daughter
of Abie Natan: "who was forced by Law to pay ...
but who never recognized her as his daughter until the end
of his life in 2008."
I became aware of my harsh judgment: "There is this man,
one of the symbols for a peace-fighter,[see English
Wikipedia]
and he does not even accept nor meet his own daughter , not
even before his death." [see
Hebrew Wikipedia>family-life, but the "recognition"
happened only in front of the Law]
Even now - after some work I did tonight - I feel dismally
disgusted with this man.
Having been a
mother of an "illegitimate" child, myself, plays
a role in this.
But a much more abysmal "hole", that is triggered
by this man, is,
to see the discordance in the lives of so many famous "good"
people,
who are not conscious of the "shadow" which they
deny in themselves,
leave alone know, that this "shadow" is
reflected in the world around them.
Well, my being triggered and being angry and disgusted only
shows,
what it means, that I am - as
I understood and phrased these last days -
a pioneer in feeling~vibrating~wombing~understanding vicariously,
for whoever is not yet able to do that.
That was the message "Abie Natan" tonight, which
I want to re-member!
After an hour or so into my nightly wrestling,
I remembered what disgust hit me, when
-in another channel, in the context of the overdue law in
Ireland,
that in cases of danger to health - a woman is allowed to
abort an embryo,
I had to watch, how the Chilean
president praised the 'maturity' of a girl,,
, for saying she wants to give birth to the baby she conceived
by being raped This girl is 11 years old
and had first applied for being allowed abortion....
The message is: "Exactly in these two cases
you have to stand the test
of in feeling~vibrating~wombing~understanding
vicariously,
knowing, that YOU are the perpetrator as well as the victim!" Remember [Green
Book p.153, concerning Martin Luther King, John Lennon,
Jesus]:
"The difference between acting out emotions
by giving them forms of violence" [even if only in your
imagination] "and allowing
them direct expression as pure emotion
is going to bring the healing needed here."
Back to 2009- Neve-Shalom and the Walk about Love
An impressive perspective of Neve-Shalom
And this was my lonely sounding in the sanctuary
That evening some of the people - truly committed
to the Walk about Love -
and not just "hitchhiking" on it, as my judgment says -
meet for the second time, in order to figure out a structure for continuous
group-work, with the aim - to share the responsibility with
the leaders,,Rea Pasternak and Gil Sason.
Since the group is a bit too big (17 people in the end), the process
is a bit tedious,
but as to its content and procedure - really good.
Yuval,
Eilam, Sjors (Holland), Yig'al, Michal Katz, Avishai, Richard
(England) , Michal Rosenzweig, Tom, Talli, Gavriel (USA), Aviyah,
Frederick (Holland)
In the night I roam through Neve-Shalom one
more time,
and compare the splendid villa of Abdul-Salaam and Aisha Nagar
with the simple houses of Eitan Kraemer and Nava and Kobi Sonnenschein.
The next morning, April 21, 2009
When we arrived - on Sunday, April
29, 2009 - above the eastern outskirts of Neve-Shalom, Wahat-al-Salaam
I knew, that it was a chance for me to do a deeper healing of my
pains concerning this "place".
While the group was settling down at the edge of the forest above
the village, I roamed around,
with the aim of finding a place, where my body and soul could find
some peace and quiet.
I discovered it in the small and beautifully arranged graveyard below,
just in front of Bruno Husar's grave.
After the second night I packed tent and backpack and enjoyed the
8 minutes of climbing up to the camp.
The sun and the shades of the trees painted pretty patters on the
domes of the "Spiritual Center".
On the first morning
Eitan Kraemer came in.
He wasn't too pleased with my having slept there,
but - being the "gardener" - he was entitled to give me
permission.
I recognized Eitan immediately.
He is the husband of Smadar, one of my pupils in "Zionist History"
and "Jewish Thought"
in the Seventies....
They were among the first people "to settle" at Neve-Shalom.
Eitan agreed with me, that the "settling" hasn't done the
place any good...
That same trail we all climbed down again, when we were ready for
this day's walk.
I jumped out of the group to enter the graveyard one more time
and complete the photographing of the graves amidst which I had found
my rest...
To the right of my tent was the tomb of Tom, one of the 70 soldiers
killed in the army's helicopter accident near Sha'ar Yashuv in 1997.
The wish of the family to erect a memorial for this soldier recently,
pushed a strong divide between the Jewish and the Arab citizens of
Neve-Shalom,
which reverberated throughout Istael.
I was told, that the memorial will be installed after all - on the
basket ball ground of the village.
Behind the tent , on the other side of the little
path
- Eitan, the gardener, and one of the participants in our 1977 Jewish-Arab
summer-camp,
had shown me the grave of Pinchas Wellesley Aaron,
the grandfather of David Broza, and mentioned on Broza's
website
as "co-founder of Neve-Shalom".
Pinchas had come to Neve-Shalom because of me,
and David Broza, who was one of the nine,
who composed a tune to the Partnership
hymn,
said to me then in 1977: "In 2 years
I'll be famous".
His impresario took care of realizing the prophecy...
I know, I sound cynical and judgmental, and I am.
It was Pinchas who told me himself, why he took care that the village
evicted
Rushdi Fadila.
And though Eitan now informed me, that Rushdi really had "a dark
side",
and that at that time Aida, his wife, had even tried to commit suicide
and that Rushdi himself had delivered himself to a mental hospital,
I still believe, that a group which claims to present and represent
"peace",
i.e. shalom, i.e. "wholeness",
should be capable of integrating all organs of its organism,
or to at least try to understand, why it attracted the sickness of
one of its organs.
It's the same for "Walk about Love", and I'll soon come
to that.
[July 29, 2009 - this promise will
not be kept probably.
I should have done so, for instance,
when I re-edited the page of Nes-Harim,
where "Shai and his consorts" disrupted the harmony of the
Walk.
But now I feel so out of place and out of time with my "All
Israel (=all humankind) are guarantors for each other",
that I don't feel like analyzing the Walk more than I've done so far.
By the way, exactly yesterday Tomer
asked me to listen to a CD with David Broza,
whom he came to know and fall in love with only recently (he is 14).
The Walkers are seen through the gate of the
graveyard at Neve-Shalom, in which I had put up my tent and slept
in it for two nights:
The upper part of the gate reminds me of the Infinity-Symbo
l (as used as a metaphor in a Godchannel-file,
see pp21 Oneness and Duality , first entry: 2001)
It is the 21st of April and the Day of the
Remembrance of the Holocaust....
Behind the walkers (in front: two of the leading
participants: Sharon and Michal (Rosenzweig)
) : Neve Shalom
While the first walkers are headed
already towards the hill of the Latrun Monastery ~~~
the last walkers are still seen on the descent from Neve Shalom:
Continuation of photos
about my personal "Intermezzo" in "The Walk about
Love":
Walking from Neve-Shalom to the Ecological Farm at Modi'in
on Holocaust Day,