The King's Candle on the ancient Maccabean hill, Modi'in, and the modern village Maccabeem

Competing with my two figtrees

I ran up my path today to catch a last flower on dead candle stems of a plant south of the elder figtree. For five full months the Candle produced beauty, while the field all around became yellow, brown and black. And now - as the ninth passage above shows - while preparing to die, it also prepares next summer's bloom. To this circle of blooming and dying of the most kingly King's Candle I dedicate my last threesome:

No, it's not yet the end.
Efrat wrote me the exact wording of the song of Ehud Manor [died in 2005]:
"We haven't yet talked about love".
In the end it says: "I want to die with you",
But Arza sang: "I want to live with you".
And she sent me two animations,
which - in the context I chose for them - may move the two lovers,
the fire flyer & the water diver, towards self- and mutual acceptance.

2009_01_13 As indicated on the first page: the Song of Songs sculpture was created during Russia's "coping" with terrorists. Now we are in the middle (?) of Israel's "coping" with Hamas in Gaza.... A coincidence: I read a sentence which epitomizes love and self-love Ich liebe dich, nicht weil du bist wie du bist sondern weil ich bin, wie ich bin wenn ich bei dir bin. I love you, not because you are as you are but because I am as I am when I am with you. 2 hours later I opened a group e-mail from Chana Bloch, from which I hadn't heard for many years: "In an Israeli protest pamphlet against the war, the page that struck me the most -- the Hebrew text azza ka-mavet -- is based on a bitter pun. The word azza can mean both “strong” (fem.) and “Gaza.” “Love is as strong as death,” azza ka-mavet ahava, is a well-known line from the Song of Songs (8:6). When you omit ahava, “love,” it reads “Gaza is like death.” There it is, in a phrase. -- Chana Since Chana asks people from the Bay-Area to attend this Benefit REading, I sent her invitation to the one person I know there: Sayyida Ahmed Bey, today Kristina Jordan, who recently sought to renew contact with me

January 1, 2009 Shalom-Salaam Sayyida,
sad, grieved, despaired as I am about people never seeing their own self-interest -
when you, as an outsider, define things as you do, I become defensive,
and this is leading us nowhere.
It's not the destruction of Gaza, it's the destruction of the Hamas infrastructure.
And nobody wants to "expand", neither Israel nor the Palestinians.
So what you say isn't even to the point.
But that too isn't the point.
What do I feel?
If you remember - or recalled by reading on my website -
what I did , mainly in the seventies and again through my vision
about Peace-through-Desert-Hosting-Economy in the nineties,
then you have nothing to ask. ...
By the way, my two websites www.empower.co.il/healingkiss and
www.empower.co.il/ARARAT
are not working now.
A hacker in Russia ruined a library of 7 years x 365 days
on December 24 (!).
And after my genius son had found a solution,
on which we both worked for many hours,
it turned out, that that hacker has put an automatic device on the sites,
which will ruin them every time again...
The question is then, for what purpose did I attract such evil into my drama?
I know the answer, but it's too complex to write about it.
I hope that the way I grow and become whole,
will - in the end - work like a Laser-ray,
even if nobody will see it,
and even if I cannot prevent
that these two self-victimizing peoples in my country will destroy themselves.

Rachel
2009/1/2, KRISTINA F. JORDAN, M.A. Dear Rachel, I am so sorry to hear of the deliberate destruction of your years of work.
Yet it is good to know that you are using the experience as an opportunity for your own personal growth and development/introspection.
This is the more important triumph of your spirit over this adversity.

Sayyida