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InteGRATion into
GRATeFULLness
Singing&Sounding keeps me Sound
Auf dem Berge da wehet der Wind
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2007_05_21 |
lyrics and tune: [see the story with little Esther about this song one of the Masterchef pages] |
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Auf dem Berge, da wehet der Wind
da wiegt die Maria ihr Kind
sie wiegt es mit ihrer schlohweissen Hand
sie braucht dazu kein Wiegenband
"Ach Josef lieber Josef mein,
ach hilf mir wiegen mein Kindelein!"
"Wie kann ich dir denn dein Kindlein wiegen
ich kann ja kaum selber die Finger biegen"
Schum schai, schum schai.
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Mika in her own house
at Shoham, since June 28, 2010, "...Manifestation
is meant to be a playground
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Wednesday, July 28, 2010 from
Arad to Shoham with my family.
Tomer returned from his friend in time to drive back
with us through Arad towards Shoham.
Shortly after Arad I was hit by unbearable pain in the muscles beneath my
left breast.
There is nothing to document this - now so rare - experience with BODY pounding
down on me.
BODY did not need to make me aware of my horror of the following 3 days.
I was aware, I was in panic.
BODY needed to express and move , move the horror, for I could hardly breathe.
And it was exactly this not being able to breathe because of the spasm in
those muscles,
which expressed, what my feelings felt.
I could not even lie down, since we had to drive for yet another hour or more.
When we arrived at Shoham and I tried - with utmost care - to squeeze BODY
out of the car,
I had to scream twice - on the edge of my vocal strings,
and then move like a snail into and up the elevator and on to my bed.
Efrat had advices and remedies.
She is half a doctor, because of the many pains, accidents,
sicknesses she has experienced in her life.
A bit later, when I was alright, as if nothing had happened at all - she described,
how she herself had been in such a situation, yes, exactly in that spasm of
muscles.
She even guessed, that it had something to do with cold, though she couldn't
have known,
that we got out of the pool for Mika's sake and later entered it again, something
I never do.
But she also guessed the deeper reason for this phenomenon, my panic of the
next 3 days.
Later - it was Wednesday-night - Mika on holiday - we watched "A Star
is born" together,
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The next day - July 29, 2010 - I was glad,
that Tomer wanted to leave for our "adventure" only towards noon.
This also gave me some time to enjoy with Mika
 Twosome fitness-training with Abba and fairy-playing with Grandma. "I want to photograph you, Savta!" |
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It was noon, on Thursday, July 29, 2010.
Tomer figured out the closest station to the bus to Tel-Aviv.
The first incident happened right there, when ...
But now, on August 19, 2010, I decide,
not to add any details to what I - by chance - already noted,
when I edited and inserted the photos of our journey 3 weeks ago.
It must have been the fourth time, yesterday night, that I told the story,
while trying to get into focus even more of what I have to learn from it.
Tzippi,
whom I hadn't been in contact with for 3 months,
suddenly appeared with Nadav, "my new boyfriend".
She wanted to know, what I did on my birthday, on Aug. 15,
but I chose to tell about my experience with Tomer at the Kinneret....
I still tend to talk about the 10% of "bad things",
instead about the 90% of "good things",
and I still feel pain and shame about what I see as my "failures".
If I would write the details of the latter,
the 90% would be squeezed underneath even more.
I should not deny the "bad things",
but I should not deny the "good things" either.
And unless and until I'll be good in accepting the "good things"
as much as my "failures",
I'll not give the "bad things" more emphasis than I've given them
already, by writing them down.
Tomer and his friend Golan - from Tiberias to Ein-Gev
under Israel's flag in the bus
When we reached the
beach of Susita a bit north of Kibbutz Ein-Gev,
Tomer took this photo of himself and of Golan
Tomer will be 16 in November, and Golan will be 18 in November.
My camera is bad in catching sunsets, so the next
evening I caught the sunset across Susita-Beach with my cell-phone
Tomer borrowed the equipment for boiling and drinking
coffee and tea from his father
Tomer snatched three plastic-chairs from the place
of the piers, 400 m further south and brought them here.
Oh, those chairs.....
Only on this first evening the lake , or as we say
in Hebrew, "the Sea" (Yam Kinneret) was somewhat rough
There is still perfect harmony between us.
Further south the three piers for all kinds of boats can be seen.
It's from there, that the boys jumped acrobatically...
After the first night, during which even the boys didn't sleep much. |
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On the first morning, Friday, July 30, 2010, Tomer
is still asleep, while Golan is already in the water and calls me:
"Rachel, put a chair above Tomer's head, so the
sun will not wake him up." I still appreciate
this caring for his friend.
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It was me [.....!], |
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Continuation of Mika's
"Heaven-on-Earth" , in March 2010, on the Song page of May
22, 2007 |