I focus my experiencing and awareness on being
"a pioneer of Evolution in
learning to feel":
I let my Body vibrate and my Heart 'womb'
pain, shame, fear, boredom, powerlessness,
so feelings can >heal >guide>fulfill>evolve,
and ~~~ offer ~~~"goldmines"~~~ to us all!! "I
want you to feel everything, every little thing!"
2010_04_24:
Mika's and my Heaven on Earth Since
2009_08_01, I employ song-page after song-page for documenting and exploringthe
evolution
of Mika, the youngest of my 10 grandchilden,
whose assignment seems to be:
to exemplify to humankind
by her own living - doing,
how to play - fully create
from moment to moment
"zest-fully and full-filled"
Sunday, April 25, 2010 [second
page]
It is the last time, that I want to document ALL of Mika's experiences, minute
after minute!
Mika has the merry-go-round for herself now,
and I enjoy her in the composition
of others kids and parents,
forever associating that
prophecy
about very old people
sitting in the streets of Jerusalem,
and boys and girls playing around...
Finally a kid,
to whom Mika can talk
Mika, angrily:
"Savta,
I told you that I would drive around the playground,
and I asked you not to follow me,
even if I would fall!"
"Alright!
Then do it again!"
The sun has disappeared,
and Mika yearns to see her friend Ronni.
I fear, that an unannounced visit is not welcome,
but I help her finding the house.
Since I don't know Ronni's and her mother Talli's name,
I have to call Efrat, and she, of course, is against the idea.
She also says - which later turned out to be true -
that nobody is at home.
Mika, as usual since she can understand and talk,
accepts the situation and thinks of another adventure.
At first she throws heavy stones against the door.
She is good in lifting heavy stones, just like her grandma.
I point out, that the stones might do damage,
so she passes on to picking a plant and playing with it.
She severs a big leaf from the plant
and then looks for a fitting stick
We now want to go home ,
but while watching a bunch of wild boys in and out the merry-go-round
she wants to climb on the swing once more.
I warn her: "we must go home, Mika!"
In that second her foot gets bend by the floor and hurt by it (earlier she had pointed out to me that new
flexible reddish floor of the playground)
She cries, and though I can make her relax with our
family-rhyme "against" little hurts,
the first thing she shows her mother, when we come home, is the hurt foot,
knowing, that the tiniest ailment would get her the greatest attention... (though she has nothing to complain about
not getting enough attention in anything that matters to her!)
This time it's a "real" phone, on which she
is talking, but to whom?
Monday, April 26, 2010 - one hour before I part for
Arad
Immanuel came back from flight
very late at night.
Before I leave for Arad,
and before Efrat leaves for work,
we urge the tired men
to solve problems,
which both of us have
with our computer
or with the Internet...
My problem is solved quickly,
not so Efrat's problem.
While Immanuel sits in the living-room
with her laptop,
Mika remembers,
that (with my help)
she had prepared
a little vase
with these "monk-heads",
as the Nasturtium is called in Hebrew, - as a welcome-gift.
Then he is meant to drive
Mika to the kindergarden
and me to the junction,
from which I hitchhike.
Some talk between us
distracts him from taking the turn
to the kindergarden,
so Mika too accompanies me
to that junction.
I discern her pretty shirt
and want to photograph it. "Only when you arrive
where you have to arrive!"
she demands,
but, when - just before getting out -
I take her picture,
she is tense....
This is the end of my intense, even obsessive creating
of photo-compositions of Mika's Heaven-on-Earth.
I'll look for criteria, which will help me to choose only certain aspects
of Mika's life and my life with Mika.
Continuation of Mika's
"Heaven-on-Earth" , in March 2010, on the Song page of April
22, 2007